I don't know what i'm feeling anymore

[ryan123]

Little background: I'm 20(21 in a couple months) and my GF just turned 25. We've been dating for 9 months now and we both seem happy.

 

Well in between March and towards the end of November things have been great. We'd do stuff like during the summer we'd go to the beach and go fishing. Go to the playground. Take pictures. Go to movies. Go out to dinner. Just spend time with eachother inside. Go shopping. Go walking/hiking. But we used to bicker and argue a lot(i'd mainly start it over jealousy and questioning her past).

 

Versus now it seems like everyday I spend with her is enjoyable it just feels like we just do the same stuff. All we do now, that it gets dark before I leave work and is too cold outside to do anything, is hang out at either my house or her house and we go shopping now that its Christmas season. I don't know why now, but we haven't bickered or faught in the past 3 weeks. And her past honestly doesn't effect me anymore. I can think about the stuff shes done without my blood boiling and I no longer question where shes at or what shes doing.

 

I've been known to become bored of things easily. And I think i'm becoming bored of doing the same thing over and over.

 

I don't think i've stopped loving her. I still feel like I love her while im with her...And I still miss her while im not with her. I just feel like things have changed for some reason...Maybe because i'm not always expressing my love for her and shes not expressing her love for me all the time like the beginning. I just kind of feel like maybe she's lost interest in me...And then she tells me last night she made a scrapbook of us(shes been saving ticket stubs, pictures, stuff i've given her) and I realize hey she really still does love me. And then I question myself if I still love her or not like im doing right now...

 

I care about her so much and just thinking about not having love for her and us being over makes me want to cry. Looking at pictures of us together and thinking that one day she may not be there for me to put my arm around makes me want to cry and undo every time ive either got mad or jealous with her.

 

Basically im just confused on whether or not im just bored with the current situation because we can't really do anything other than hangout or go shopping or did I lose love for her?