mental and physical abuse

[enterthepain]

Im new to enotalone, and i mainly joined up to just be known in the world, have my voice heard, you kno that sort of thing. Im 21 and Ive pretty much lived my life in my own personal hell. My dad was a real abusive alcoholic, mentally and physically, to my mother, my sister and myself. Ill never forget the time my aunt got married and afterwards all the adults went to the bar and the kids stayed home and just goofed off. I will never ever forget this moment, my cousin, his girlfriend and me were just watching a movie and my mom walks in, crying and stuff. I looked at her and she said just leave her alone and leave the room, so we went to the living room and thought nothing of it. Well about 15 minutes later, my dad walks in. "Where's your mom, I need to talk to her." Being I didnt feel anything was wrong, I showed him where she was, and she wasnt in there. Well here she was hiding in the bathroom all along and she started screaming when i had left the room. "Call the cops, hes killing me, hes killing me!!" I was scared half to death, I ran next door to get the neighbors while my cousin called the cops. I was really hysterical though, I couldnt believe it was happening. Afterwards, we got everything settled down, my mom was all shaken up, he didnt really kill her, of course, but beat her pretty good. Well he goes into her purse and takes her cigarettes, and me being 14 and dumb got bold and said "so you come here, beat up my mom and take here cigarettes?" He came over to me and headbutt me and knocked me out cold. When i came to, he was gone. He tried calling later that night and was crying, im sorry, im sorry, come home. I told him basically to shove it up his ass.

 

Well my mom didnt do anything about it, but my father finally did. Ever since that rediculous night, hes been sober and hes been awesome to everyone. That story is just one that stuck out the most, but there was so many more to count, and i think that those years of my life, could be the reason why i am and how i feel today.

 

I want people to kno basically that i despise abuse, physically and mentally, and if theres anyone there who dosent think mental abuse is anything, it is believe me. You call someone stupid, ugly, fat, tell them they will never amount to anything enough, it sticks in your mind, it really does, and so much so, you start believing it. Also, I would really like to kno more about this matter, and to help anyone in need, anywhere. This is a matter not to be taken lightly, and i am so serious when i say, if there is anyone out there who needs someone to talk to, i am an awesome and devoted listener, and im always here...take care everyone and have an awesome holiday!!!

 

Bobby

[yeawutever]

Thanx for sharing your story with us. You're right no one deserves to be abuse.

[zeena]

i really understand you ,until now i am abused by my dad physicaly and emotionly,today he beat me and called me bad names, iwas really upset,and he acts like it never happened,i really hate that ,its becoming anormal thing to me. thanks for sharing.wish for you a good luck

[enterthepain]

Well, i wish more of a good luck to you, and thats really not right at all. I feel so bad because i wish i can take everyone away from the pain, but its just not physically possible. What i used to do, and still do to this day, is i got a notebook, and wrote my feelings, songs, notes to myself, journal entries of what happened that day, and other things too. I dont really have nearly as much to put in a book now, but then i had a lot. You dont deserve any of the garbage, no one does..its all bull * * * * . I especially feel bad for you because i knew a girl in the same shoes as you, i dont kno how old you are, but she was 14 at the time, and she used to share stories with me, and as i did with her. She lived not to far away, and actually haha, now that i mention this, her dad was the magistrate of the town i live in and he also used to marry people, and he married my aunt that very day of the story i told. Wow that amazes me, i didnt think that would come together like that. But i felt her pain, and i talked to her for hours and hours a day. Anyway, be strong and safe, and if you need someone to talk to, like i said, im a great listener...take care

[zeena]

thank you for making me feel better,but i really want to move on in my life,and i dont know how