Haha what a joke. Why am I here

[turnaroundmyway]

My FI cancelled the wedding and said now we have different priorities. my life offically sucks. My marriage was my one bright star in my frikn cr@ppy life, other than my daughter. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate that everything I try fails. I hate that people don't see me for who I am. I hate that I'm here physically with no purpose but am tortured every day. If it weren't for my daughter this would be so easy a decision. Just take me now.

[k_1971]

I'm sorry to hear this. Yes you're hurting. but you will get over it. You need to focus on being strong for your daughter.

It's not your fault. You're still angry about the cancellation of the wedding. but at least you may have saved yourself an expensive mistake.

 

Things may look bleak just now, but I'm sure they will pick up soon.

 

Take Care

[Swivel]

sorry your having a rough time. I may be too young to understand the anticipation and excitement of getting married, but perhaps it was for the best. if this isnt the guy for you, then take what time you need to recover and eventually things will come together. if you are ment to be with him, then things will work themselves out. all you can do is take what you have and try to make the best out of it. if nothing else then learn from it.

as for your purpose... I have reason to believe that there is a certain little girl in your life who, regardless of anything she may say (if she is at the point of saying yet???), looks at her mom with absolute admiration. just love her to pieces and enjoy every moment watching her grow up. take it from a kid, having a parent who is interested in your life means the world to us.

I hope I could help even just a little bit. just keep your chin up. the actions of one person dont affect the love that everyone around you feels for you.

[turnaroundmyway]

Thank you for your kind words. I don't think I can pick myself up again after everythings that's happened to me with my past. I'm too tired. I have the best kid in the world. I tried for her and myself by I always fail. Shes 14 now. I do what I can for her but her life has been rough too. It's not fair. Please help me make it stop. I can't do it. I can't. All my strength is gone. I'm scared. please help me.

[EQD]

Yeah, just imagine how crappy your daughters life would be if you left her all alone.

I'd have to say that without my father i would have been in a bad place a long time ago. He is the single most important part of my life. Always has been.

[Jeffrey2095]

Yeah, just imagine how crappy your daughters life would be if you left her all alone.

I'd have to say that without my father i would have been in a bad place a long time ago. He is the single most important part of my life. Always has been.

 

My father was the only thing in my life, I lost him 25 years ago and it rocked my world. (I was 22, no other family).

 

He remained alone after my parents were divorced in 1965, dedicated his life to raising me.

 

I can't imagine those 22 years without him.

 

I know it hurts, but you wouldn't leave your daughter all alone.

 

Turn to her for comfort and realize she needs you for comfort at this time also.

 

Jeffrey

[Portage]

Your daughter needs you as you know. Be there for her as she is for you. She is unconditional love, better than any other fleeting love.

 

Your daughter will always be there, men come and go. Love yourself and good things follow. I've noticed this in my own life.

 

PM me if you need to talk.

[turnaroundmyway]

Thank you everyone. I have the best kid in the world (ok, I'm her mom and and I have to say that) and my family and friends have been very supportive. Initial shock and embarrassment really makes you think crazy things. It is so nice to know that there are people out there that honestly care. I will try to return the support here to those that need it. I do wish the pain and embarrassment would just disappear, but my daughter is and always has been such a source of strength for me. I do tend to forget about myself and focus on giving to everyone else so it drains me. When I take a hit from life, I often have nothing left because I've already given it away. Thank you all again. I will be ok. I just need time. What a wonderful supportive resource for people.