i want more...

[lakerfan3118]

i'm in a weird spot right now.

seniors in high school, i love my girlfriend to death. i mean, i really do.

but as the year progresses, i sense the end is near. and, anyways, i have this urge to really want to be close her before the cutoff.

 

but, haha, we have really different i guess ways of showing love, and it gets frustrating sometimes.

 

i like to do small things, but they never really work.

sometimes, i playfully try to make her put on my hat or, try to give her a bite of my chicken nugget. or maybe even say funny words in an attempt to make her laugh. i occasionally kiss her cheek but, there's no reaction. they all crash and burn pretty bad.

 

as far as she is concerned, besides holding hands every so often, and sometimes our walks home, there's nothing. i make myself available, i guess, taking time off from my friends to be with her, but she doesn't take the bait. another example, today i took the extra money off of work to buy clothes and look nice for her, but there was no notice of it. we went out to eat with a close friend, but yeah, she was really nervous and there was no connection. it kind of, i dunno, disappoints me i guess.

 

ummm, yeah, the only time when things seemed to be on an upswing is lately at work, when the boss us out. she's given me this real passionate kiss that really took me by surprise... absolutley indescribable. it was something i 've never gotten from her, something perhaps i want more of. i waited for that at school the next day, however, but nothing. kind of a letdown.

 

so yeah. i basically want more- i want to feel like she wants my affection. perhaps for her to show her affection more often, but i don't know how to approach it, if i should in the first place. i mean, i love her, you guys...i don't want to waste a minute, but yeah...