NEED SERIOUS ADVICE on a this

[markusG]

ok my fiance and i broke of last week after lots of tension at being apart accusations of mistrust and horrid rows and it just got out of hand with me mass mailing and both of us clashing and forgetting that we do still BOTH LOVE each other intensely.

 

I stupidly threatened to end it by saying silly things and demanding things and that if not i wont marry her and infidelity and i just got clouded with stupidity and lost my mind with it all. Im actualy calm now theres no contact.

 

SO she ends it for various reasons, but still says she only wants me and desires only me and will only ever LOVE me and due to my actions its a shame we cant have that dream and my illness and selfishness and other things.

 

It was pretty much a massive build up of tensions from not being in person and hidden fears. So she also removed me from her websites and emails and said please do not mail me as i wont read them and do not contact me at all and dont worry as i dont wany anyone else i only desire you but you dont believe i love you and i've loved you in vain and i mocked it.

 

 

all very seep as we are both artists and intense people. anyway it really was a mess and gettng stupid but we both DO love like crazy and with passions.

 

SO !!!

 

Whats weird is that she stil keps all my photos and then adds more photos to her site and puts one of her looking over her shoulder at me next to one of me being love of her life. and another photo of her looking out to sea, saying God make me a bird so i can fly ? and NONE of her friends are replying as expected but they have all kept me as friends ?

 

Well her main truck was that in the start SHE risked everything to chance seeing me as she knew i wouldnt fly there to tell me she Loved me and it was amazing and we deeply fell in poetic love. but aprt , she knew i dtruggle it got silly. Anyway i flew out for 5 weeks there made it good and then came back. BUT !

 

 

It then in a short while got silly again and she said she made all the effort and tok the risk and all i did was talk and say tomorrow next week and what have i done to ACT on any of it ? So she ended it due to constant emails and things that didnt exist and my lack of effort and her continued Loving me and my not respecting it in her eyes but she will only ever love and want and desire me but not to worry ?

 

 

Well she had a close single guy friend and he'd stopped over and it freaked me out and i reacted badly. I was anidiot and wouldnt let go, so she had a point and i do tend to live in a set way, and shed offered me a new life.

 

finally what with her deleting me from everything and yet still she says in a relationship ? and puts pics of us together. Her bro mails and says just get on the plane she loves you and get your ass in gear im rooting for you ?

 

 

yet some people have said DONT come dont go, she wont want you or ill get accused of stalking ?

 

Erm NO

 

I have a flight in 3 weeks just under which she knows full well i have and my itinery ok !!

 

Do I cancel ?

 

it's really weird, nobody is saying anything about how she is to me and its all a bit odd yet in my heart i still feel her speaking to me.

 

any clues please , im doing good and did not go out and get drunk or drown in sorrow which i think they were expoecting me to do but i got my stuff together and thought id work things out ready as she wanted me to go and stay for a while and sort out marriage.

 

What would YOU DO ???

 

it is abit perplexing that she neds it al from her mothers house yet she still keeps al my pics and puts the one of the sea up and her looking accrosss the ocean wishing to fly away ?

 

I just dont want to be accused of any wrong doing if i get my flight by other people, bottom line is it is beteen me and her and i have done my best to not contact her, and commune with others just to let them know i care for her improvement.

 

Any Clues ???

 

IS she after revenge by adding more pics and making it appear she wants me again by doing this so I get all hopefull then BAMM i get to feel destroyed ?

[Jeffrey2095]

Hi Markus,

 

I wouldn't worry so much about the stalker rap, I mean, you were engaged, and all you want to do is talk to her.

 

I would get myself together... think of a good apology etc. get it all together in your mind...

 

Tell her how you feel, lay all your cards on the table and see what she says.

 

Now, if she won't see you or freaks out, back off and just forget it.

 

But maybe a bit of absense has done enough healing where you can at least see her one more time.

 

Good luck and best wishes.

 

Jeff

[markusG]

But maybe a bit of absense has done enough healing where you can at least see her one more time.

 

 

 

Jeff

 

 

So you think its really over ? why would she keep in a relationship on her profile then if it IS over ?

 

And do things that seem towards flirting with me ?

[princess_summer_blue84]

Hi Markus,

 

I wouldn't worry so much about the stalker rap, I mean, you were engaged, and all you want to do is talk to her.

 

I would get myself together... think of a good apology etc. get it all together in your mind...

 

Tell her how you feel, lay all your cards on the table and see what she says.

 

Now, if she won't see you or freaks out, back off and just forget it.

 

But maybe a bit of absense has done enough healing where you can at least see her one more time.

 

Good luck and best wishes.

 

Jeff

 

so agrees. Only time can really heal . Good Luck and best of wishes .

[markusG]

so agrees. Only time can really heal . Good Luck and best of wishes .

 

if it were truly over why would she put up more pics and say im the love of her life and then kind of act like its a dream in other ways.

Unless im being punished or its some form of crazy revenge ?

 

Its so intense.

 

she said she risked it all to see me and i needed to risk more ?

 

if you truly wanted to end it completely surely youd not be doing as she is ?

 

Unless she feels that deeply hurt she wants to keep me guessing to add to my pain so she can get sorted out ?

 

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