hasnt phoned in 2 weeks

[narcoleptic]

I wrote into this forum before, but its been 2 weeks here is the episode. 2 weeks ago had a mental breakdown i call it a nervous breakdown winded up in pyche unit. Due to the stress and isolation have been on. Im a city girl come from queens, husband is country comes from westchester. I suffer from narcolepsy a sleeping disorder so can barely work part time, but was up until 4 years ago. . This is my second marriage, we are both in our 50s. I moved to westchester but dint think life up there was so lonely. I cant drive, buses run only 1 1/2 hour and im stranded. not like in queens, where stores are walking distance, my family and friends, but figured I would stay with parents a few days a week and work then go up to westchester. and have the best of both worlds, but I was not figuring on having a brain annuerysm, infected gallbladder, breast bipsy, d&c and now knee surgery. My husband was good the first 5 years, but the past 2 ive noticed a change. Ive separated in sept for 4 weeks then went back telling him I needed to split the week that i cant take the isolation living in westchester. Before i put my bag down i explained before we diecide any living arrangement, you must first search your heart as I think you are tired. He said I wouldnt have picked you up if didnt want to try. So after my knee surgery I went there for 10 days, had planned a small party for moms 75 birthday, and he pciked up the food, suddenly i wanted to sneak the food into the house to set up and he turned around and said, youre a pain in the ass and I hate you, he dropped the food off and left, 4 hours later people were still thewre he called like nothing and said how is everything going. I said you could of stayed, but when its for my family we always have to run home because he dont like to drive in traffic. That tuesday i winded up in the psyche unit , in all the few fight we had, never once did I ever us the word hate, but this one time when he said it it just made me goo loopy. I told him the nightof the party that since he talked so mean to me that i came back to soon and need more time, thats when he said no more time, we should just caught our loses,he said after his mild heart attack last year, he got fed up with my illnesses, I did not ask for a brain annurysm, narcolepsy, he knew i had, a dand C, knee surgery, infected gallbladder. Things happen, Now when I was discharged the next day from hospital I told my parents i dint want to see him and the mds thought it was best. He called my mom and my mom told him nicely. 2 days after I got home, I sent hime an e card saying I love you and still care, that he is not to blame for my breakdown but rather westchester, and that I have an answering machine on one of my parent phone lines, I gave him the number, I know he got the card as it said he read it. I got no response, I emailed him telling him in another week I needed some of my respiratory papers and a few things for now. no response. This friday I went up to get somethings and left a note, Ive been out of hospital 2 weeks and cant believe as a human being he didnt call. Hes that fed up with my illnesses. I know I stilll love hime so. If he moved to queens he would get up at the same time and still be at work at 6am coming home might take him alittle more than an hour. I did it for 7 years, with my whole heart, but now living up there making me physically and mentally sick, so without my mind im useless. If that were me i would of needed an hour to say honey i will go where you go, yet I know now that i wouldnt want him to be unhappy, i cant believe he just like dropped off the face of the earth. I dint want to call him as i dont want anyone who cant accept me for all my illness unseen and ones i have to live wiht. In queens I could maybe work a couple of days a month, m a respiratory therapist and love helping people . All my life i have come through all of my illnesses, and willthis one, I start therapy this week. I did not overdose, and am not on any psychotic meds, the doctors said it was all the stress andtension. He tells me after his mild heart attack he just has had with me. So what do i do. When we split in october i called him 3 weeks later and asked himi if he would ike to go out to dinner and talk,but now i cant believe as a human being he hasnt called, any advice.

[volpe]

if you use paragraphs you'd probably get more responses!!

[volpe]

if he hasn't called you, then you don't call him and find a way to move on. eventually he will contact you about something but it may be for real that he is through or he just needs a break, i don't know, but give him space. i'm really sorry for everything you've gone through.