What is going on with me? Loss of control...

[freeindeed]

Hi guys,

I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I feel like within the past year my "symptoms" have become worse. A few weeks before my period, I am moody, I tend to hate everything, have the worst thoughts, my mind feels like it's spinning and I can't get it to stop, and I can go from 0 to 60 and back down again within minutes.

 

The day I get my period, however, the world feels normal again. I feel normal in my skin again, the skies are bluer, the world feels right and I don't have the same irritablity that I had before I got my period. I know everyone is going to say it's just PMS, but I don't think it's that simple anymore. My tirades are getting worse, and the bad feelings are lasting longer and longer. I'm scared that I will only feel normal for one week out of the month (the week I have my period), and the rest of the time I will feel like I want to crawl out of my skin and under a rock to get away from a world that I hate (only at that moment, 'cuz usually I love life).

 

And I know people are going to say that I just have to control my emotions, but I can honestly say that I've tried and it seems impossible. It's like getting stabbed with a knife and not making any faces or crying... that's how impossible it feels.

 

Is anyone else going through this?

[Zackinlaw]

I'm not going to say any of those things!!! Maybe you should see a doctor who specializes in hormone imbalances (is that an endocrinologist?) You could be needlessly suffering from something purely physical.

 

Zack.

[fnlyfrei]

I go through it as well. In fact, I know the very day/instant it starts. I go from feeling great to this grey cloud that seems to envelope me for two weeks. I seem to become another person. I actually warn my husband how I am feeling. I believe it's hormones...and I have gone to a doctor about it...who perscribed anti-depressants. They helped I guess, but I felt rather flat and toneless, which I guess is better than crazy bioatch. I have since left pills behind and have found eating right and excersizing is way more effective. I don't believe there is a magic medical fix...and NO you are not imagining it...it's real.