Leting it all out

[brownie]

Hello all, I hope you guys are all well..

so here is my deal im sorry in advace for the long post, my husband is in jail, I live with my mother-in-law who is nice most of the time however she gets on my nerves all the time lately, I actully have thought wow I am glad she will die like 30 years before I do( yeah messed up)

I feel trapped in my life, I have a lilttle one he is 11 months old I should feel happy but I dont I feel frustated, hateful and I just want to give up.

I feel like this will never end, I cant keep friends I cant do anything.

 

help??

[sandyv]

Sorry to hear that Brownie, I guess it must be kind of lonely without your husband with you.

 

Not much info here, I hope he isn't gone for long. Maybe if he isn't you can get away from the mother-in-law and get a life together with the little one and him?

 

Also maybe you can post a little more info so you can get support here....?

 

 

Sandy

[brownie]

Sorry to hear that Brownie, I guess it must be kind of lonely without your husband with you.

 

Not much info here, I hope he isn't gone for long. Maybe if he isn't you can get away from the mother-in-law and get a life together with the little one and him?

 

Also maybe you can post a little more info so you can get support here....?

 

 

Sandy

 

Hello and thank you

yes, I do feel really lonley and still upset that he got into that situation.

 

He was military and was court martial and kicked out, so they took away his pay, we lost our home so I had to go live with my mother in law, she is a good woman just that she is rought and takes her anger out on me.

 

He is still got 4 more months of jail time, I cant get a job because I dont have anyone to take care of that baby that makes leaving my situation sucky.

 

I have tryed mommy groups, but I dont fit in, there is not a lot of ex-cons groups, and meds but they all have odd efects on me making me worse.

 

I just feel like running away, but I know I cant I know I am stuck. I feel like ripping my skin out or just getting in the car and driving far away and never looking back. I know however that both of this things can kill me or land me in jail, then oneone would be there to love my little one.

 

sorry for the long post

[brownie]

things are just getting worse, anything she saids makes me sick to my tummy, I have this insane anxiety I cant sleep I cant eat, I feel Like blowing up.

 

I dont know what to do