once again...

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

Im such an idiot! I always give people the benefit of doubt and then it comes back into my face!!

 

Ive noticed a few things about my friends that really made me think. Theres this girl I talk to (she seems immature for her age) who started talking to another friend of mine during uni, they pretty much 'dogged' me everytime, he thinks shes the best thing ever and his only known her for a few days. I hope he finds out what a lying ...um... person she can be!

 

I was supposed to go out last night, I had made plans with another friend, when the time came he didnt say anything at all, and today I found out he went out with my ex...

 

My other so called friend only thinks of me when its time to party.

 

I seriously have no friends, no one I can truly trust, no one I can talk to. Its really depressing.

 

I think I feel more alone now that I broke up with my boyfriend. I wish and hope that one day I'l run into my perfect man, I dont want to be alone forever.

 

Ive decided not to move out either, my family is the only thing I have at the moment (no matter how annoying and stressful they can be, they still care). Im supposed to be doing my assignment, but Im so upset, Its just not working.

 

Anyway guys, Im just venting because I have no one else.. thanks

[Gath]

sorry things aren't going well for you know. studying is very difficult when you're stressed out. . . and thats the time you need to study the most. >

 

Good luck tonight. Internet is a good place to vent.

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

Thanks Gath

[AngelEyez]

Hey,

 

I felt the same way as you just at the beginning of summer vacation. A few months before that my ex-boyfriend cheated on me and then dumped me. I was tired of feeling alone so I decided to go out a lot more with friends. I kept asking people I met in University to go out. I asked some old high school people to go out. They agreed. I was thinking, "Who needs a boyfriend when I have all these people to be with..." Have you noticed I've been saying "people" and not "friends"...Well, it's because they weren't really friends. Just people I talked to on different occasions. I attempted to try to get to know them, but they didn't even want to be around me, I guess? I'd make a plan, they'd agree, and an hour before we'd go out, they'd call and make an excuse. They'd bail. Sometimes, they wouldn't even care to give me a call. I even waited 2 hours outside for a so-called "friend" to meet up with me as planned. Do you know how long it took me to get ready? Hehe...

 

Anyways, I got extremely depressed and I was also on anti-depressants at the time. I was mad at my family too. My dad is never home. My mom and brother are like teammates. Whenever one has something mean to say, the other has to add in their 2 cents. It's a piss off. Well, I decided to just leave everyone and go to Poland to visit my old relatives. I left for a month without telling anyone where I was going (excluding my family of course).

 

Let's just say, Poland was a waste of my time. I don't even know why I mentioned it. Poland gave me more heart ache. I couldn't stand my relatives. They were more annoying than my family! I missed home.

 

As soon as I came back, I started to hang out with this guy that I used to go to elementary school with. He is now considered my best friend. Then I got two more friends that I sometimes go out with. I also found a good friend at work.

 

All I'm saying is, it takes time to meet REAL people. I'm not saying I'll be friends with them forever because stuff happens, but I know they're REAL and actually WANT to spend time with me. In time, you will find. Trust me, I thought I was hopeless too. Before knowing these friends I was saying "to heck with this world. I don't need friends." But, we all need friends It makes life just a little better.

[MadGenius]

I'm feeling the same way. Bad friends that I can't really call 'friends' anymore, no one to talk to, lonely, depressed. I won't move out because then there will really be no one around.

 

We just gotta keep on going. Don't try to push people away....even if you keep getting hurt eventually things will turn around.

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

Wow, the beginning of your story sounds like mine, I thought about going overseas to visit my relatives too, but when I think about it, I dont think its such a good idea. Some people can be so cruel, Ive never bailed out on anyone, and I had always thought people would treat me the way I treat them.. how wrong...

[JeckyllNHyde]

I know that feeling too where you just feel like you have no real friends to count on. Kind of like a best friend like your BF probably was to you. I felt like this for a long time before.

Try and be happy with the ones you do have now, even though it's a bit tough. Try and see the good qualities if they have any.

I don't have any best friend anymore either. I just have a few good/close friends (4-5). Some too, I only talk to when we go out together. Others I don't see everyday, mostly once a week.

Once you realise you only can and need yourself, you won't worry so much about the others around you. Well, accept at school and other social settings.

I would cut out the toxic friends from my life if you feel they make you feel negative.

[JeckyllNHyde]

All I'm saying is, it takes time to meet REAL people. I'm not saying I'll be friends with them forever because stuff happens, but I know they're REAL and actually WANT to spend time with me. In time, you will find. Trust me, I thought I was hopeless too. Before knowing these friends I was saying "to heck with this world. I don't need friends." But, we all need friends It makes life just a little better.

 

I completely agree with this. I went thru this long path till one day I finally met people who treated me like REAL friends. We will always share those great highschool moments from the past. Not many people I can say that about.

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

I'm feeling the same way. Bad friends that I can't really call 'friends' anymore, no one to talk to, lonely, depressed. I won't move out because then there will really be no one around.

 

We just gotta keep on going. Don't try to push people away....even if you keep getting hurt eventually things will turn around.

 

 

Its hard to go on, Im not going to push my so called friends away just yet, I might minimise the time I spend with them. I dont know how I would survive if I had moved out!

 

I hope you feel better soon, we can get through this becuase we are better than 'them'.

[MadGenius]

It's absolutely hard....I went out tonight and left after half an hour when everyone was picking on me...

 

Gotta keep trying....I guess.

[AngelEyez]

Oh goodness, I think I spoke too soon. My so called "best friend" is starting to date some girl named Anna. He said that once he actually has a girlfriend he'll tell all of his friends to "go away" (but in a rude way...like the f-word). I feel so unwanted now. Who does that? I guess I haven't found a REAL friend just yet.

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

It's absolutely hard....I went out tonight and left after half an hour when everyone was picking on me...

 

Gotta keep trying....I guess.

 

No way!! Far out, thats so immature! Why were they picking on you for? what were they saying? These people need a dose of the same medication!

 

But I do admire your attitude, you dont give up which is a good thing. Im close to giving up, I dont know if I should waste my time on people who just use me and hurt my feelings but have people to go out with OR just give up and have no one to go out with anymore...

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

Oh goodness, I think I spoke too soon. My so called "best friend" is starting to date some girl named Anna. He said that once he actually has a girlfriend he'll tell all of his friends to "go away" (but in a rude way...like the f-word). I feel so unwanted now. Who does that? I guess I haven't found a REAL friend just yet.

 

 

Shesh, that dont sound like a true friend at all! I know someone who did that and when she did break up with her bf she had no one, no one wanted to talk or assoicate with her anymore.

 

*hugs*

[MadGenius]

They were picking on me because I sucked at the game we were playing, even though I was only there to have some fun.

 

I really want to give up. Everytime I go out and make an attempt (which honestly is NOT very often) I just get hurt again.

 

I spent all summer sleeping.....I'm so depressed I can't even enjoy video games or good books anymore, I just try to be unconscious as much as possible.

 

Sometimes it really gets to me though, and I go out and try to make something happen.

 

When college starts I'll have to drag myself to that terrible place and try every day. I really want to make it work this time, I hope I can keep my mask of confidence up long enough.

[x_perfect_stranger_x]

Hmph! That pathetic! People can be so cruel!!

 

I hate going to uni! I know what you mean about having to drag yourself there, honestly if half of my grades werent based on having 100% attendence I probably wouldnt show. I feel like I have to act all fake and sweet to talk to people.

 

Why do we even go through so much just to meet a bunch a people who end up hurting us anyway? Meh, I dont think its worth it anymore.

[MadGenius]

It'll be worth it if we can find some good friends. I had very good friends in high school. They're all gone now, but that's only because of how all our lives differed after school.

 

I don't want to be alone forever. No way I can keep going on being so lonely.

 

All the riff raff will just make the gems that much more worth it.

 

Just keep telling yourself that.

[Gath]

Hmph! That pathetic! People can be so cruel!!

 

I hate going to uni! I know what you mean about having to drag yourself there, honestly if half of my grades werent based on having 100% attendence I probably wouldnt show. I feel like I have to act all fake and sweet to talk to people.

 

Why do we even go through so much just to meet a bunch a people who end up hurting us anyway? Meh, I dont think its worth it anymore.

 

Yes, people can be cruel and heartless, and its unfortunate.

 

But I'm not decent to people to make them like me, I'm decent to people because otherwise I wouldn't like me.

 

Don't give up, you wouldn't be you anymore. There's good people out there too.

[JeckyllNHyde]

Oh goodness, I think I spoke too soon. My so called "best friend" is starting to date some girl named Anna. He said that once he actually has a girlfriend he'll tell all of his friends to "go away" (but in a rude way...like the f-word). I feel so unwanted now. Who does that? I guess I haven't found a REAL friend just yet.

 

I have seen alot guys do this so often. They always come crawling back when they get dumped though.

You don't really need "friends" like this though. I also tend to go into my own world with only includes my BF (when I have one), but I don't forget the people who are always there for me all along when I am bored, stressed, sad, happy, etc. and I don't push them away or avoid them completely.