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From childhood I have doubt in my gender , at first I thought it's temporary , I have always treated like a boy thanks to my dad , I won't blame him but he was the reason I have a question mark infront of my gender , forcing me to address my gender as a boy and think like a boy , I think he wanted me to be more confident but it just made things worse Now I am stuck in between being a girl and a boy , I have no interest in girly things and act like a girl ,at first I thought I am just a Tom boy but this desire of changing my gender end me up in several depressing episodes , I recently cut my hair and I liked it . But here is the thing I like boys ! If I am a boy am I gay,now I just adresse myself as gender fluid but no desire of being girl , and my pronounce are he/her . Am I gay or straight What to do next 😞💔

Hi, here it is: my boyfriend masturbates every day in front of porn when I am right next to him, for some reason it deeply hurts me. I am cool with the fact that he masturbate or watch porn on his own time. But when I am around it hurts. When he start to watch porn and masturbate I sometimes try to participate or have sex with him. But he imediately turns the screen of his computer away so that the content of what he is watching is out of my sight and asks me to turn around. What hurts the most is that he chooses porn over having sex with me ( I am a 25 yo attractive girl). I talked to him about it. He said that I was not open minded enough. That sometimes he just wants to masturbate, that masturbation and sex are two different thing that you cannot compare. That by masturbating and watching porn next to me he was just trying to be himself and that I should not try to change him. What should I do?

So, yesterday I came out of my latest relationship, almost 6 months. The thing that I'm concerned about is my lack of emotion. Of course I'm having the usual blues but really nothing compared to my past break ups, some of which included hysterical crying and texting. I think I am becoming numb to the cycle I continue to put myself through. Since I was 15 I haven't been able to spend more than probably 6-8 months on my own without having someone to mess around/ be with. Most of my relationships go as follows. We hit it off. Sex around month 1-2. We continue for the next 2-3 months. Sex life is great so much so we spend more time cuddling and in bed then out on dates. Around month 4 things get rocky I find some other girl that I need to worry about but I'm talked out of my worrying. Month 5 I barely get any kind of interaction if I don't plead for it. It ends. I'm having problems with the revolving door relationship cycle I have put myself in. Also I think part of my issue is the sexual side of these relationships. Sex has been a big part of all my relationships. I think even in some cases I have pushed my partner more than they were ready for. Sometimes I feel like sex is my biggest asset in these relationships. I see these issues in myself but I don't know why I can't stop myself. Each time I can sense the pattern but I subject myself to it EVERYTIME. I need some insight on these issues. Has anyone experienced anything similar? Is there some kind of plan I need to make for myself to break these habits?