NoIdea2013

That's not the best mindset. If you guys end up back together down the road then great but right now everything being ok should not involve him coming back but you being happy with yourself. A little hope is ok,but it cannot dominate your thoughts. I'd suggest you post a thread in the "healing after break up" section. Get some advise and start the process if healing and letting go Hugs to you, people are here for you!

No I'm not ok. You hope i'm ok but i don't think it's genuine concern

I really really miss you. I wish I didn't but the days just seem to be getting harder. I;m dreading this friday, I;m dreading Christmas, and New year, and Valentine's day and your birthday. I hate myself for saying this but I love you so much. It's so hard not to just text you or call you and tell you that.

Hi, I;m still in (physical) pain. Wish i could tell you. I find myself running through or conversations more and more,searching for clues. I'm nowhere near over you. I miss you and want you in my life. I'm trying to convince myself every minute that if you truly love someone you want them to be happy even if it's not with you.

I've had to take the day off work because I've hurt my back. Wish I could tell you. I nearly texted you at 6.30am to tell you I miss you and I love you. But I won't. That's not fair on you. Just need to suck it up I guess.

Dammit, today is tough. I miss you so much and want you back, but I know that isn't going to happen. Hope you at least thik of me, now and again, because I can't stop thinking about you.

I'm sorry, i still have no idea what to say ro what to do about this. I don;t think i should go. it's too soon. And inapprpriate. But i need to find a way to tell you thatw ithout you thinking I hate you. I don't. I love you.

I'm sorry,I have no idea how to reply to your offer. I think I know where you're coming from,you're trying to be normal,be friends. I want to be but don't you think this is too soon? I'm still hopelessly in love with you. Part of me always will be. It kills me you moved on so quickly,or perhaps even before we ended. And what about him? Is this fair on him? It wasn't on me when we were together,it can't be now. You said his actions were disrespectful and inappropriate,did you encourage him like you are me now, thinking you were just friends? I have no idea what to do. I actually looked forward to going to this thing with you when we were together,how can we go now,apart but in each others company? Did I really have so little effect on you,or are you trying to do the right thing,to say "well I tried,not my fault he's bitter" I'm not. I'd love to spend that night with you. Just chatting,laughing..but how could it work at this time,less than two months later?

I really miss you today. I truly wish I didn't. I hate that I dreamt about you last night,about you loving me as much as I loved...love? you. I truly wish you were with him when we met and we could just have been friends,the perennial what if. It'd be easier. I don't think it's better to have loved and lost, right now I feel better to have never loved at all.

I haven't felt too bad today, or last night. I'm still thinking about you contantly, and I know it's unhealthy that I'm day dreaming and fantasising about is getting back togther, or still being together, but it's giving me some postive energy for now, and it might not be the idea of being with you, but being in love that's making me more positive. I miss just lying with you, holding you. Talking about everything and nothing. I wish you had opened up to me more, I wish I could have been the person to help you talk about things that bothered you. I thought I was in soem respects. I remember you saying you felt you could be yourself with me, that you didn;t feel the need to put up your usual walls. That made me feel ten feet tall. It's possibly the sweetest thing you ever said to me. I was special, I'm not like other guys...i hope that was true. I know you're with him, I try to forget about it but I can't. I'm not sure what he has that i didn't, how he gives you butterflies when I don't. perhaps he doesn;t and this is a rebound. perhaps you're meant to be together because he's been a constant presence in your life for so long. You said yourself we were perfect for each other, if you couldn't make it work woth me you didn't know how you would with anyone. I don't know how much of that statement was just meant to soften the blow for me. I haven't contacted you. To help me, but also to help you. It wouldn't be fair on you to have me there in the background, on your phone, talking to you. It wasn't fair to me when he did it, but I tried my best to pretend i didn't mind, even though it made me terribly insecure. I am at the same time dreading seeing you again and looking forward to it. I know it'll happen eventually. I don't want you to just be a memory, but I think you think I don't want to know you anymore. I do, but just now it's not fair on anyone if we talked. I really do want you to be happy. That's what true love is I guess. Hoping someone is happy even if it isn't with you. I miss you so much. I wonder if you think of me, even in snatches, and I hope, even if only for a moment, you miss me too.

You're back with your ex 3 weeks after we split up. The same ex who you said couldn't make you happy like i did. The same ex who pestered you all throughout our relationship. The same ex who I was completely secure about, I understood you were friends. You broke up with me a week before my birthday. Days before a family event I had to face alone, humiliated. I loved you completely. I loved every aspect of you and accepted everything. I've lost my best friend.