iris8

I just want to ask you how you are doing. But is that what I really want to know? I want to know if you think about me sometimes, if you ever regretted leaving me in these last few weeks. Do you think about me? As a person? Or was it just a pass-through relationship, so you could build yourself up for something greater and bigger? You told me you were wondering if you were ever going to feel that deeper connection with anyone. I just had to infer that that meant you were not feeling this for me or ever going to feel this for me. If I hadn't asked you what was on your mind, we might not even had broken up to begin with, but I cannot live a lie, I knew there was something going on with you and as you said it wouldn't be fair to the other person. The other person was me in this case, and it wasn't fair because I feel you didn't "see" me, I want to scream and shout that I am a person of flesh and blood, with emotions, and emotions for you. Not just something that made you realise you haven't found what you were looking for. I am still hurting, my chest filled up with pain, maybe it is not you, but just the simple fact that once again I met someone who didn't value me, all the good things I have to give, and all the love I have bursting inside of me. I desperately want to contact you and I know if I ever do so, I have to be over you, and then I probably don't even feel the need anymore.