JTP1994

Yah Interstellar is pretty simple IMO. I love that film and want to bash those above that say otherwise! Anyway. Black Hawk Down. Watched it last night for like the 5th time and wasn't enjoyable as the last few times. Turned it off and watched some Louis Theroux then, much better haha.

A month since I haven't text her drunk with the chance of reconciliation. Not drinking for the foreseeable future to completely stop myself. Wish I could block her number. So annoying. It's just "Can we try again?" Leads to her saying "I'll think about it." And me just being upset about it all when I get the reply. All because I'm drunk. This ended May 13th of last year, and it's been all my own fault that I haven't kept myself to myself and let it all end and be buried.

Ah yes! Haha

I'm gonna' read that whilst on the way to work in about an hour, Boomshine (nice name btw, catchy). It sounds like it may suit me, but if not I like reading things like that anyway.

I looked at her profile on Facebook today, so I'm calling that a break in NC as it caused me so much pain. I will restart tomorrow! And I broke NC in an email asking for real reasons behind the break up and that I needed closure. I should have just let it go. WOOPS.

As much as I love you, and I truly do. You have broke my heart and destroyed me. I couldn't have done anything else for you if I tried, you were my girl and I done everything I could. I just can't believe someone that 'loved' me so much would do something so horrid to me and lie to me about it. I am disgusted and deeply upset. Maybe one day you can be forgiven, but that is not anytime soon. Enjoy your life and live as well as you can. Goodbye.

DAY 9: Real mixed emotions today. I keep having horrid dreams that she is back with me, and it does nothing but break my heart for the morning. But then I just remember I need to be strong and continue with myself. Just wish I could have woke up with her this morning... Maybe gone for a walk and just relaxed with one another, as we done so well. But that simply isn't going to happen, so I have to just understand that and completely ignore it. Had an opticians test today so I done quite well in that, now I have nothing else to do because I have finished my college work until the end of the term. All I have is the gym now until I finish college and go onto work. It's something, but it isn't earning me the money I need. Awh well, that's me done. Hope you are all well! Joe.

Olympic lifts? Not my thing, I'm just a guy that likes his squatting haha. Yeah, I'm dropping some lbs too. It is a great hobby to keep yourself calm and with your head on your shoulders! Joe.

8th day of no-contact. Past week I've been okay slowly progressing from tears and anger into somewhat careless, I suppose you could say? Still been working out as you may call it. Squatting 160KG on Monday so that took my mind off it and gave me a bit of a boost. She mailed me today on Facebook asking if I could go down hers to pick up some stuff... But I don't think I'll be doing that. Just a long hurtful road, even if it ends in sex or something like that. Would like to make it 6-8 weeks minimum, but I wouldn't mind if she considered reconciliation even though my mind says that is definitely not happening, regardless of it being 8 days or not. Just doesn't seem that will happen. I miss her so much. Joe.

Do you still think of him? There was a thread on here not too long ago that was about someone who was married and felt uncomfortable because her husband felt more like her brother... During sex. So maybe you 2 being best friends in a relationship wouldn't have ended well. Eh? How long did he not contact you for before you thought you made a mistake? I mean, I'm in some sort of low-level amount of hope that this will work with my ex as she wants me as a friend but she doesn't want a relationship. No matter what ANYONE says on here, no matter how much you tell others "I have no hopes" for their relationship reconciling, they're lying. I've just pushed it in the back of my mind so I don't think of her or the relationship now. Thanks for your input anyway. I like a good read. Joe.

Once again, I feel you. Greatly. My experience is the past 8 months of my life were the best 8 months I've had in so long, and I know that isn't equal to your 3 years but I CAN relate to the fact you loved this girl very much. Now I obviously don't know her reasons but some people may accuse 'cheating' etc. But I can't see that being the issue here. IF things didn't feel the same she probably feels that you lost yourself in the relationship and valued her more than yourself or something of the likes, would you say you changed much over the past 3 years? Anyway, the main thing here is that you don't know what her feeling was. And if you want to know, then you may go ahead and ask and try get the best answer possible but I would suggest you leave her alone for 4 weeks or so until both of your emotions have calmed so you can talk properly and be calm and collected with her and talk about what has happened. And yeah she may be upset, she probably misses you. Hell, she probably thinks of you quite a lot too, if not the same amount - but this doesn't mean she's thinking of you and her together. She misses you and probably just feels bad that she has hurt you and feels that if you and her talk that it will cover her guilt and help her out. Give her space for the next few weeks, see how you feel, improve yourself and get yourself back to who you normally are before you even think of contacting her again. She needs space to atleast think, and decide what she wants or needs in her life. Give her at least 30 days and see how you and her feel. I'm not sure if I helped much or if this was really clear. But I hope so. Good luck. Joe.

Can I still get involved even though it's been 7 days today? haha

I feel you, friend. Yes she probably is missing you and that will only get worse for her in my opinion (hopefully) as that's how I feel. My ex and I have been broke up just over a week too so I can definitely understand how you feel. You think they wont contact you or that they aren't thinking of you but the truth is - you just don't know so don't kill yourself thinking about that. Or what they're doing just eat it up and get on with yourself. Don't contact her if you can get away with it, and if something severe happened to end your relationship and it was majorly your responsibility, then yes I'd suggest working on something but if it's something silly then don't let it ruin you. You are you and you need to regain yourself in order to move on. Good luck, PM me if needed. Joe.

I feel that. I've been waiting 6 days and thats hard enough. I genuinely think space is the answer (in my case at least) as well as others. Hope they come back to you, I really do. But I think it would be smart to initiate contact sometimes... You never know.