Day 1. I think she has gigs. still madly in love with me she says. she still looks at me the same. hugs me the same. still called me the same pet name. well she did on Saturday. has become infatuated with a Co worker who has a girlfriend. she's kissed him. Shes 18. me 26. she's very mature for her age. She is my best friend. me hers. She said she needs to go and live. she said WE need this. and she said we'll be together in the future but she just doesn't want it right now. I'm devastated but I'm back in the gym after 1 day. I'm aching like hell and it's a sense of achievement. Booked a 8hr tattoo session for January. I'm getting me back. We have agreed she is going to collect her things from my bin. I'm going to leave them their today. She is going to leave my driving licence. I have told her I love her and hold no bitterness. we are best friends and in time we will be able to revisit that if we both want it. I've said I'm letting her go. And moving on. She said I love you and that is it. Day 1. After a few days of breaking it. Not one sign this was going to happen. nothing. still as in love and as close as ever. I'm still in shock but I no the correct way go get myself back!
