Rygy10

I just want to hear the sound of your voice. I know I shouldn't want to and that ultimately nothing will change. Yet, its been a week since you called just to vent to me and then the next day I told you I couldn't be there for you because I love/care for you too much. I'm sure you're out there enjoying the single life and the attention that I know you're getting. It doesn't bother me surprisingly because that is what being single is, freedom. I wish you the best, I know I need to move forward. I hope you enjoy your Cancun trip with your two friends who I told you to reach out since you were to stubborn to do it without encouragement. I'm glad you did and it warms my heart to see you have the close girlfriends I always wanted you to have. Its gotten easier since December 28th, 2012 when everything ended. I'm getting back to my old self and picking up the pieces of my heart and putting it back together. No, I'm not talking to anyone and truthfully I want to be alone to become a better person and grow as an individual. I'm slowly taking you off the mantle, realizing you weren't perfect and how self-centered you could be. No i'm not bitter about anything, its just a realization that maybe I deserve more. I'll always be thankful for what we had and the memories I cherish. Maybe i'll always love you and our paths will realign out of no where like they did initially when we first met. Regardless, you and your family will remain in my prayers. I hope to one day sit in on one of your moms lectures and talk to her after; see how the family is, tell her how without your dad and moms encouragement I wouldn't be where I am in my life, and to thank her for how warm her home always was. Until we meet again, be safe but enjoy yourself. You're 21 and have your whole life ahead of you but you also need to realize how much you mean to everyone. I'm sorry for the pathetic things I have done in the past, but I know you understand. I'll always have moments where I may think of you, at least for now. But I won't reach out, I know our relationship is over. I hope we remain in one another's lives, but right now thats just not possible. Until we speak again, may God watch over you and protect you. Ry