Never_Back_Down

well i havent written on here in awhile but some stuff has happened so here i am. basically what has started it all is one of my firends has just gone to the hositpal a few days ago and they found out she has brain cancer and wont live that long. so this also got me thinking about my friend that was murder, he was leaving a house party and some guys outside it him in the head with a brick then ran over him twice with there car. the throw him in a ditch, but he wasnt dead he clawed all the way home and die right outside is his house the next morning. so all this has gotten me derpessed again. i mean i know my name is never back down but right now i dont care. i mean all my friends and friends parents are dieing so who cares. also thinking about my friend why would someone do that to another. they didnt know each other and they just killed him. i am so depressed i dont know what to do. the other thing that is going to be hard is going to see my friend in the hositpal know that he wont leave knowing he is going to die there. basically i feel empty there is nothing left, i have no drive to get up or do anything, there is just nothing. i wish i could explain it better but i cant well any help would be great because right now everything is must meanless and empty.

also i have dealt with her personal life for many years i have been there through thick and thin, and about the parents not liking me or whatever. I have dealt with drug addicts before i worked at a rehab but that doesnt matter i can take whatever they can throw at me and if that means they hate me forever that is fine. Is there anything else you can think of that i should straighten out before going through with this? Thanks for your input

thanks for the advice, but i though about all of that already. My ladlord is ok with subleting and i gave her a time limit she can stay there the summer. I have know her since i was 4 i know everything about her and and she knows me really well. About the drinking and drugs we party together all the time we are both drinks and sometimes and yes we have done drugs. I would not just do this for anyone, i would have to know the person really well and i do know her. Thank you for your input but i am not rushing into this for the same facts that you brough up. If she wants to moving that is fine, if she doesnt that is fine too. The main thing is that i just want to help her and i will back her up whatever her choice is.

Hi I have this friend that is having a hard time. She is done college but is having trouble finding a good job and the one she has right now doesnt have many hours so she isnt getting a lot of money. So she is now living at home but her parents make her pay rent and phone and everything which wouldnt be that bad if she had good parents. Her mother is a aochol and uses pot, there have been times when i have being banging on the door and she didnt hear because she had passed out from drunking. Her dad isnt any help it wasnt too bad during high school but the last few years it has gotten worse and i have told her to leave, but since she hasnt got a great job and her parents make pay for everything she doesnt have enough to rent a place. She has looked for jobs sometimes she has worked two jobs at once to try to leave home but everytime she makes some money her parents suck it out of her. About two days ago i told her that she can move in with me, the thing i worry about is her parents getting mad and may do something. We all live in a the same town so we are not that far apart. The main thing is i want her to get on in her life and i feel that the enviorment she is in now will not help. I want to get her out of and live somewhere were she doesnt have to pay rent or anything so she can save some money to get on her feet. What do you guys think i should do. Any input would help. thanks

Hi I play football for my university and I have been lifting for a few years because of it. First eating the raw eggs is fine. My roomate did that every morning during school last year and he is fine. The only thing about drinking them is finding way to do it without gagging lol. The other thing about creatine is true all creatine is, is water weight. Secondly personally I dont like to use creatine for this fact once you take it if you stop a lot of the muscle goes to water and you lose it and gain fat. So drinking lots of water is another of geting part of the effects of creatine and you wont lose your muscle if you stop. Other then that eat many times during the day small meals and get sleep. And stick with it the results come they dont happen over night but they do come.

I dont what to say other then just be yourself and sometime he will see that is better with you then without you. But as long as you have a bf it will not think about it at all, and if you are happy with your bf dont do anything to wreck what you have with him for the chance of getting your ex back. Other then that i dont know what to say. If he knows how you feel it is up to him to take the chance. But if he doesnt you may have to give up on the idea, but who knows what can happen

hey I sometimes have a problem with depression. I can go a few weeks feeling fine, but then out of nowhere i get depressed and it can last for days or sometimes a week or more. I have been having some really bad days lately i just broke with my girlfriend so that didnt help. Still i have had somedays where i dont want to get out of bed or do anything at all. Sometimes something triggers it and sometimes nothing triggers it. I live in Canada and my depression swings seem to happen more in the dark days of winter then in summer, but it happens in all seasons. I was just wondering if there is anyone out there that can help me to deal with this depression. If you can tell me how do you deal with it and is there anyways i can aviod it all together. I thank anyone for the help. Hopeful I will improve but i have been this way for a long time, but he is hoping.

well all i have to say is that you know who i am and from are conversations about your past is that there is nothing you can do about the past. All you can do is try to deal with in the present and i know it isnt easy. I have worked with young offenders with drug addicts and things like this and the best thining to do is talk to your friends and councellors about what happened. Sadly this will never change what did happen to you but it will help you deal with it. As for relationships the person you are dating will have to know what happened to you and has to be willing accpet it. if he does not than it wont work out, but also dont let what happened between you and your father affect your other relationships with men as one i must say we are not all bad guys. you have to talk and let him know what is going on in your life because life is hard and you will be depressed a lot take it for a kid that is depressed himself. Bottlem line is that your life is not and will not be like everyone else which is not bad. You will just have to deal with life as a day to day thing. Lastly the clingy thing is just you trying to find a good male influnce in your life. Just know that if he is a good influnce and you are a good relationship with them they are not going anywhere. You dont have to worry about them turing and running if it is meant to be they will stick around for a long time. keep going and know that i am here to talk if you need to.

Ok well my girlfriend and I have been going out for little over a month now. I am in University and she live in my hometown. So i dont get to see her every often. But since Feb 14 is coming up I though it would be a good time to show how much I like her, but early this week she tells me that she is not going to be around for Feb. 14. She is going away to she her grandma. Well that took me be surprise and I didnt know how to answer other then saying ok thats fine. What do you guys think I should do should just wait till she gets back and just do something special then. Or ask her to stay for Valentines Day and go see her grandmother the next day. Since I dont get much time at home ( about once every two weeks for the weekend) I almost ever get to see her, but I dont want to sound selfish by asking her to stay. What do you guys think please any advice would help. thanks