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  1. I've read the posts in this thread and they all sound so similar, I'm afraid that the person I care about will never come back to me. To elaborate, my friend and I had met online in-game. Over the past few months we'd developed a relationship where we would talk to each other via Skype calls every day. We both wanted to get jobs before starting a relationship though, so, although we acted very loving towards each other, there was no official relationship of boyfriend/significant other/whatnot. There is half a continent between us. Suddenly, at the end of October, his grandfather died. While he seemed unhappy about it, he did not immediately shut me out of his life. About a week later, after the election, I noticed that where he used to initiate contact, he is cold and distant. When I asked him if he was angry at me, he replied that no, he wasn't, but rather he was angry at the world for screwing him over so many times, for not having a job, that his parents had even birthed him in the first place. I let him know that if he ever needed to take his anger out, I would be there to listen, to which his response was that his anger was just fine where it was locked up inside of him. He has since stopped responding to my texts, which consist only of "Good night" or "Rest well", and has not logged on to Skype at all (the circling rings next to my unsent messages are still there). When he is online in the game we played together so much, he will not so much as even acknowledge I exist, except to respond to any casual talk about the game I might share with him with negativity. His friends were oblivious that he had been displaying such anger and negativity, meaning that I am the only one, aside from perhaps his parents, who has received such treatment. I have been giving him space, not attempting to message him in game. While I was playing recently though, I was listening to our server's TeamSpeak, which we were both on at the same time. And what shocked me was how normal he sounded and how casually he interacted with strangers compared to the coldness he displayed towards me. I feel like the person I knew has died, and in his place is some stranger who is just like him but doesn't know or care about me. I know that this isn't about me, it's about him and his grievances. But I would be a liar if I said it didn't sting. I have received multiple assurances from both my friends and his, as well as my therapist, that he will come around. But, after reading your posts, I am even more pessimistic that this will happen. I feel like I've failed as a friend, since he doesn't seem to even consider me that anymore. Everyday I sit in front of my computer in agony as to whether today will be the day he finally contacts me to end everything. I feel like I have to watch him suffer while I can do nothing but watch. I can feel myself slipping into depression again; nothing tastes good anymore, I can't focus on studying, and I can't even enjoy playing the game, because even if he is on, he won't so much as look at me or talk about trivial things like we used to. People might tell me to move on, but the truth is he's the only person that's expressed love for me in such a way, and that there is no one I would rather be with. I've decided I'm going to send him a replica scarf from a game we both like that I've been working on for a while. It was originally a personal project, but now, I think it might do him more good if he received it for Christmas. I worry that he'll just throw it away though without even opening the package once he sees it's from me, and that he'll be this way for good. I don't know what to do. I am terrified, not just for me, but for him as well.
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