Today was hard, being in an environment where we normally would have been together. I missed being able to debrief on the session with you, and most of all I missed having you at home to just relax with. I feel so alone and I can't believe how isolated I had become because I could depend on you to be there. I miss our family and our home. I enjoy living with others, but it's not at all like living with the man you love, who loves you.
Most of all I wish you would contact me. I wish that you would go out and get help for your depression & anxiety, and that you would lay off the speed until you had all of that sorted out. I wish that I was worth working all of that out, because there is nothing that I wouldn't have done for you.
Unfortunately, I will love you always..