LivingHell9

You texted me late last night, no doubt thinking about me after a bad date. I still haven't answered. I know we'll need to speak soon but I just need a break from you for a few days. I can't be mad at you. You are who you are and you do the things you do and I kept coming back. Truth is, as much as I hurt sometime, I know you hurt tons more just being you. You have short spurts of happiness with partners only to have it crumble to the ground, over and over. You are a mess. You are mentally imbalanced. Thanks to the car wreck, you may not even have a normal sex life again and you have to wear diapers. In short, it sucks to be you. But remember why the wreck happened, due to your bad choices with men yet when a good man enters your life, you tear him down and push him away. Sadly, all the pain you have in your life is self inflicted. I loved you and still do. I accepted you for who you are and empathized with your current physical state. I supported you while you recovered. I briefly thought I could be with you despite the sexual issues you face not to mention the other physical challenges. But you hurt me again and pushed me away again. I have no one to blame but myself.