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Saw Delta Rae live a few years ago. Did a cover of Chandelier that was fantastic - and on an outdoor stage with bad acoustics even. Maybe it’s on line someplace...

I don't know if you are ruminating, seriously interested in someone else, taking a mental break, over it ... I'd like to know. I suppose if I never find out then I will know. okay then.

You thought of me for long term until when?

Wait. Was this related to me being on line in Nov? If so that is just stupid. I didn't realize how closely those dates align till now. Whatever it is or was, leaving you alone with the merry xmas exchange. Whomever you're seeing is someone you met a month ago. She might last; you are more discriminating now versus when we met. Whatever. You take your time. You've never chosen me, but it seems like you feel you did and that I wronged you somehow. I just can't figure that. Not going to try.

Glad you like it!

Merry Christmas! Now playing Mozart concerti 1 - 4 by Dennis Brain, d.1965 but still the best. Annual tradition.

My desire was See who you want to see but take me home and keep me till tomorrow. The lead I followed before I left for X took me closer to you. When I returned, I couldn't get close at all. This was a reversal for which I was wholly unprepared. If we each could be someone for the long term, then two mistakes happened: The act of putting me on hold, and my non-negotiable reaction to it. I can understand each of our responses. We acted independently of one another. Maybe it was what needed to happen to demonstrate that we want to work together. If we got to a place where we wanted only each other, that would be joyful. Till then, am I to hear about the game, get a taste of it, answer questions about how I like to play, and then be happy to sit in the bleachers and watch? I think that's the idea and if so then I need help understanding how I would reframe that. Its good that I dont look at this casually, right? So you know my intmacy is truly intimate? but then, how...

Thank you Sher

Slush said, What are your plans? I said, I don't know. I don't have any parents. It just bloody sucks. Except when it doesn't. The old LiveAid song has made me cry like 4 times. So I'm thinking I am a bit of a mess underneath my sturdy exterior. I am afraid to go to church. Gonna cry there too. --- Mom, Dad, I am glad you are comfortable. Thank you for giving us your lives, making us your purpose.

Sending ((()))

I watched the whole thing. She dumped him. He came back and asked her to marry him on xmas. That's stranger meet to wedding across two continents in 7 days time. Yeah that's a good idea. :)

I am on corny Christmas movie / romance #5. I think this one is called A Prince for Christmas. Actually, now that I think about sociological references, I am annoyed and changing the channel. Also eating raw cookie dough. Hormonal flare up maybe? omg yes must be. This roller coaster is a trip!

several old music themed flicks tonight, all repeats... One set to the Speakerboxx cd, seemed like andre 3000 and Terrence Howard were in the mob-controlled club scene in early Harlem Renaissance. What movie was that?? The Preachers Wife was next, perfect for xmas. Corny. Whitney's voice was remarkable. Now its Ray. That scene when his brother drowns hurt me so deep when this movie came out. I shut my eyes for the rest and missed the story. So now I made myself watch the drowning, the heroin. Its so dang painful. Jamie Lee Foxx is my jam. Except for his dang ego. Whatever. I ain't leavin Matt Damon for nobody, not even Jamie. ETA Quincy Jones! Ahmet! Amazing!

Ralphies tongue on the frozen pole Im still in therapy over that and its just a movie

oh the tree story. so funny, so tragic, like the christmas story movie, one doesnt know whether to laugh or cry. can you see it on the big screen, the bread knife? omg so painful and ironically funny at the same time. but its your reality. I have many xmses of late wherein I couldnt care a whit to havd a tree or any of it. It doesnt make me sad not to want, it makes me ... neutral or even happy. I always have hot cider tho. and maybe some rum and maybe some bourbon.

oh ick. little consolaltion that those were evidence of feline affection for you!

you didnt invite me. lol

im superman it is uncanny how much we share similar taste in music!

Dad, I have been mismanaging my money, paying for things I don't need or that aren't even my account. I have had three issues with my car, two of which could have been avoided, and that cost me about $1500 or maybe $2k. I have missed two flights. Left my keys in the front door. Or my packages out front, forgetting to bring them inside. This morning I walked away after buying my coffee. Without my coffee. That said, I know you believed in me. I resolve to go see my rector this week. To begin to set my details in order. It won't be like this forever. I will talk to you more. That might help. Wow, talk to you more. That struck a resonant chord, and not an easy one to play. That is a strong clue that I must do it.

Well done ! Brava!

For being me.

I am grateful for seeing this thread pop up in the feed. I had forgotten to be grateful. Thank you.

Um. You drank yourself to death. I walked out of our friendship a year ago or so, after the incident of exposing me to your bestie who then talked trash to Slush thinking she would win him at my expense; after I saw you teetering in the afternoon in the bar; after you persisted in telling me you did not have a drinking problem. I said for you to get help and that I cared about you but also that I had to speak up. At least, I think that's what I said. Then you died. I didn't write you, call you, visit you. I wasn't in town for most of it. I thought about it, and decided it wasn't appropriate to feel good about myself, that I couldn't be sure what it would mean for you, and that your friend was nothing but destructive for me. Why reopen that channel? It was selfish not to be available to you. It also was appropriate. Addiction killed you slowly. Watching it happen --- no. Want no part of that, no part of the collection of people who made so little use of their time on this planet, the people with whom you began to surround yourself. This is my funeral for you. Now, you can see your father, and absorb his attention that you missed so deeply. You can see your mom. You can heal, if not on Earth then in Heaven, a place you were clear about, a place that exists in you, you full of faith in God and Heaven. May God have mercy on you, heal you of all ills and pain, and hold you in love. May we all find such healing and love, such that in faith you knew it would be available to you. Goodbye friend. The addiction stole you long ago. Don't know why, but I am glad to think your ravished body can no longer diminish your spirit.

That. man was one floor shorter than the elevator. Interesting how he changed over time. i can't imagine listening to the tape. The video that followed on the two beats fighting was bad enough.

in reverse order: Grizzly Man The Zookeepers Wife Atomic Blonde Lion All worth seeing.