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Ubiquity

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  1. You haven't texted in about a month. I assume you've gotten into the mindset that you need to move on and to stop wasting time on me. That's good. I just want you to know that I would have really loved a friendship with you. Don't think that I'm also not sending you any texts or messages because you don't matter to me, anymore. I'm doing it because I want you to move on and to get to a better place. I don't want to hold you back. You would probably think everything I just said is bs, but it's not. I'm not as mean and selfish as you seem to remember me as. Anyway, I really hope you've started going to classes again. You've finally been able to get into college, again...please don't ruin your chances. You'll find yourself in a much better place as long as you take all the opportunities given to you.
  2. I wrote down all the reasons I could think of, last night, to not contact you. I think it helped a bit. It doesn't hurt to think of you, today. This is a temporary fix, though I'm sure I'll think of something to get me over you. It actually feels good to not care. In this moment I realize you've moved on and we mean nothing to each other now...which is fine, because that, itself, is closure. I like to think I have an easier time than those who have exes that still contact them occasionally, because with you, there's no more guessing, and nothing to hang on to. And that is perfectly fine.
  3. I hope it doesn't become common place for me to post on here. I don't want to miss you. The only reason I still come on this site it to look through the new posts and imagine you writing them. In the end, I'm not sure what I want. If you came back to me, would I accept? The feelings are still strong, so maybe. Yet, another part of me says no. Maybe I just want you to hang on to me forever, even though that's entirely too selfish. I shouldn't have access to the internet, or know any of your accounts, or your girlfriend's. It stops me from fully moving on and it makes me sound stalkerish. I'm not, I swear. It's so hard for me to like people and to give myself over fully to them, that I feel like maybe you'll be the only one in my life who was able to do that. I know that if you were to come back, we wouldn't last. We're too different. I'm kind of ashamed to say our sex drives were too far apart, also, which is probably a reason why we got so unhappy in the first place. Considering the things your girlfriend posts, I can bet you two get along better in that area. I remember when you told me 'I thought I loved my ex, but I was obviously wrong. I'll never love anyone as much as you.' How many times can you be wrong about that? I hate that I still think about you this much. But, I guess I should also say: You were so good to me. I'll never forget that. I can't hate you and I have no reason to. If things ever get rough, and you need someone to talk to, and if you absolutely have no one left (since I know you wouldn't come to me unless that was the case), then, just know that I can be here for you while having it mean nothing. Just the way you like it. You're a good person, and I'm sorry that you are having troubles finding an education or a good job. You deserve only the best.
  4. So, apparently you're talking about me to your girlfriend. I would appreciate it if you didn't. I can't stand up for myself now can I? And honestly, I only have good things to say about you if anyone asks, why is it you can't be that way, too? Our relationship wasn't bad....I wasn't that bad. And she says it's gross? Is she that immature, or what the hell are you telling her about? Another made up story, like what you told me about your ex when we were together? Please, can you learn to keep your mouth shut? I don't know if talking about your past makes you feel better, but I don't like it and neither does your girlfriend. Besides, talking about it makes it seem like you're not over me....and I hate that delusional, false hope. You blocked me on fb, too, about two months after I sent you one message. What was the point of that, even? You never even update your fb for me to check up on your life and I have other ways of contacting you if I wanted to. Was it because you didn't want to see my posts? Idk. I can never get my opinions accross without sounding immature. Sorry. Anyway, Merry Christmas, I suppose. Also, I just remembered. Tomorrow, you, your gf, and I are all invited to the same party. I have a feeling neither of you will go, but if you do, I hope you will refrain your gf from sending me any passing looks or glares.
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