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The urge to look you up and find out what you're doing sometimes doesn't leave me alone, but I want to do things differently! B/c only by doing things differently I will have a better outcome. The hurt you caused me is worst than not hearing from you. It has been 2 weeks, and I'm okay. If you were to contact me it would cause anger in me, and it's best if you don't. This month marks another year of life for me, but I hope you don't decide to congratulate me. I don't need it or want it.

I'm scared to go on with life, because I feel it should be you w/me in the present and future. I know that will never be the case and that brings tears to my eyes. I can't say that I'm sorry for all the things I said to you, not now, b/c the pain you caused me is far greater. I hate you.

It has been a week, and I feel anxiety and emptiness. I'd like to know what you're up to, but at the same time I don't. Today is a rather hard day, and I hope to make it thru w/o having any type of news from you. I'm scared to give in to looking you up, but I know if I don't it only makes me stronger. I must be strong.

Yes that is all we can do. Concentrate on doing things we love that makes us happy, and keeping busy.

I keep thinking how you said one day you'd marry her, and it hurts so much. I fantasize in my head of her NEVER wanting to be with you, and NEVER wanting to marry you and I think that would be as sweet as revenge. But revenge is not sweet. I'd better let life handle you. I'm glad I haven't heard from you, and I hope I NEVER will.

I started to feel angry today while at work, and started to take it out on a co-worker and I realized it's not right and immediately changed my attitude. I still wonder who you are seeing, and if you're contacting the one that you said you'd marry one day. I know that in matters of the heart you can't pick and choose. It really hurts me that you have her as a friend, as I would have never done that to you, but I guess that's where we are different. Loyalty and fidelity to me is important and you just don't care. One day I'll wish the best for you, but right now I only feel anger. I don't wish bad things on you, but I won't wish you well. I'd like for you to know how it feels to be cheated on by someone on a social networking site. Only then will you be able to put yourself in my shoes. I wish I could turn on a switch that would make me forget, but I will keep going and only worry about doing things that make me feel good.

Tosmileagain...I'm right there with you! I feel like a mess too.

You make me feel hopeless, and I want to run out and scream to let some of my hurt out. But then I start to think, that it could be me being impatient and not giving time a chance to heal me. I want time to heal me, and I want to move on w/my life and be happy alone.

Great thread and so appropriate for me right now! I'd like to ask, if he's happy? If he really plans on marrying her? That I hate him. That he wasted my time for so long! That he should have spoken with the truth. That I'd rather have the truth. I hate that I love someone who was an a** hole sob.