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no this is true, we have done all of those things....and we still do do things like wrestle and act toiuchy feely (when no one else is around)...but it was all a shock when we got back to school...and we act so different around ppl! we have in a sense found a balance and im startn to cope with how we act when alone in comparison to how we act around our friends

yeah, all of you guys are hilarious! many of you probably havent read my recent posts....but he doesnt have a girlfriend or a boyfriend...and i dont think he has ever been involved with anyone! he shows interest in me, but in the end i feel as though he is afraid to be gay/bi and battles with himself

lmao, thank u so much rightfromthestart! i needed this laugh you are hilarious...there is no way im doin those too! i can't even tell him how i really feel! LOL! if u have read some of my other recent posts, you'll see how close we are...and just cant seem to pass this barrier...but im in too deep

lmao, i think that would b hilarious! ....but idk, perhaps something a bit more practical? idk if i wanta break into his place

sometimes i sit back and wonder why i allow myself to get so emotionally, physically, and mentally attached to him! we are not together, we never have been and we have never even kissed! However, I often find myself drifting away in class with thoughts of him, and waking up wondering what he is up to, or calling just to hear his voice...How can i possibly allow his actions/word although not meant to cause pain, inflict so much thought that i have even cried, or find myself upset, and hurt? how can this be so...with someone that i've never actually told how i feel...how can this be so...with someone that has no clue how often i think about him, and how i desire to be given the privelege and devine oppurtunity to be in a relationship with him...to care for him in deeper ways than a friend and cater to him as a lover! Its time like these that only one thing can explain my true feelings...and i think and as hard as it is for me to believe I think I am in love! True love, something that I have never ever experienced...something thats hard to explain...something that causes the sight of him to brighten my entire day and put a smile on my face....something that causes me to hurt and even cry when i feel neglected! (its time for bed, i may add or review this 2morro) What shall I do? What do you do? *These are just my random thoughts, I typed it from the heart without proofing and I hope it makes sense to someone...because I could really use advice!

(haha, britain? i wanta visit there) but yeah i can understand the misunderstanding! here 2 guys typically wouldnt be caught in the same bed...but its not unheard of! we slept in the same bed...but again didnt do anything outside of playing around and wrestling! so today when he was over things were pretty heated...we were wrestling and fighting and under the cover (my bed was destroyed lol) i mean all over eachother...a lot of fun! 2morro we are spending the day together...i hope i can gather the guts soon (cant take this much longer)! k, off to bed...exams tomorrrow! thanx alot fred

sry about the mix-up...i guess we have done enough for him to be ashamed for ppl to hear...but there is nothing like gay definining ex. kissing, making out etc.! i hope that clears it up... it seems as though since sat when i got really pissed he realized that he hurt me in some way and noticed that he has to keep a balance! since then we have seen eachother every day...and talk on the phone/im and have been making plans etc. today @ a career fair that we went to, we both dressd up and he was so hot in his suit..we lookd @ eachother for a few moments without sayn anything

Thank you Fred, I found your response extremely helpful! I like your honesty and the fact that you can relate! I have thought about these options that you speak of for quite some time...and I know that If I tell him there is a chance that he does back off (temporarily/perminantly) or best case scenario, the 2 of us being together. I am also aware of the fact that If I dont tell him, I will continue to allow myself to be hurt in my mix-up of feelings, and perhaps eventually loose these feelings for him! With this said, I can't seem to gather the guts/courage to talk with him! Going with what you said...yes my mind is made up...and more importantly my heart! I know that I want to tell him how I really do feel! I dont think that we did enough...for him to be afraid of me telling other ppl (which I wouldn't). I really hate the fact that my life has to be such a dramaturgy, and I know that if I were "straight" things would be a lot easier! But Im sick of lying to myself, and gurls (that like me). Everyday, I am reminded of how much of a great guy I am by girls and just today a friend of mines told me that she likes me! I can no longer play the games of dating girls, knowing that I dont want to be in a relationship with a girl! However, I have been single for quite sometime now and am ready for some form of committment!

I am afraid of me telling him how I feel and him telling me he isnt gay/bi, or backing off, or telling someone (im in, and in a very stereotypical straight guys lifestyle). Really thata about it! Ive never had to tell someone that I liked them (not even a gurl)....and Im just nervous.... wat r ur suggestion? lol...im such a punk and i know it!

Thank you for the response, and I completely agree! But what do you do when you know that you truly like this person...and want to be given the oppurtunity to be in a relationship with him! Today he came over, I think it has a lot to do with me leaving the party last nite and being upset! We chilled here, at 1st it was awkward....but it slowly got back to normal! Before I knew it wasn't upset with him anymore! We played around (as usual), wrestling...etc.! He stayed here all day until i had to leave for a meeting (frat) and he had a ceremony (honors) to attend. He then told me to call when I finished the meeting (im about to call him). We also discussed doing something this wk, getting off campus (ex. mall, city, shopping, just getting off campus)! Im glad that we were able to rekindle, but I can't stand the "hot and coldness"! I really just want to be with him! I've been thinking and Im trying to decide what to say, to tell him how I feel! ...so he calld me and im going to study for a bit, and he is going to do the same (in our own rooms)! meanwhile he askd me to tape the simpsons, family guy etc. and he'll come over...we'll get food and watch the shows! haha...hopefully these things will keep up..i just can't take the on and off thing that typically happens! ...to add, he did come over and we ate/watchd tv! and i thought that would be it...but she stayed and we played around, and watchd tv, and talkd, and laid on my bed...and things are looking good now....but when willl that coldness come back? i really wanted to kiss him tonite (i usually do)! i also want to just tell him that i am attracted to him, and really like him..and want to be in a relationship with him (but thats not gonna happen...im too afraid)

thank you all for the posts, I appreciate it! I really dont know what to do...and have NEVER felt this way for anyone before! I seriously am hurt, and angry with him! So when I woke up today the 1st thing I thought was to call him...to say hi and just talk! But i didn't the stubborn person in me decided no...let him come to me! This would be like what you guys said about giving him his own space (but this will create a gap like it did in the past) and we just wont talk/see eachother for a while...then he'll give me a call and we'll do something or go out with some friends that are familiar with how we typically act and things will be gr8 and those feelings will resurface! Sometimes I feel like, no dont call him, don't worry about him...but I strongly think that since I like him so much, and want to pursue a relationship...then I should call when i feel....tell him that we should do stuff! I agree with you guys "Maybe hes just struggling to come to terms with his sexuality and is horribly confused - hence the hot and coldness" But I cant stand the coldness...and miss the hotness! I wish there was something I could do to hurry this process! But I am a patient person, but Im starting to think perhaps I should just move on.... So he IMed me today...wondering why I left the party (now he wants to show concern)....I mean, why not call me when I left (although he did look @ me when I left and lip "where are you going") ...should I mention that Im upset with him? But not blow up and create a big scene? or just let it go?

Ok, so one of my friends (closest friends at that), that i really like...acts different aroun other ppl and it really bothers me... ...So for those of you that read my last post...you can skip along some! k, so we have known eachother all throughout college, and this summer we both stayed on campus and worked together, living next to eachother..and got to know eachother very well! we would see eachother every single day (breakfast, lunch, dinner)...and do everything together...our friends that were here would make fun of us....cuz we always wrestle and play around....end end up in awkward positions (ex. holding hands, tangled, or in some other position that could be taken as sexual)...however, through this all idk if he is gay or not...we have never actually gone any where with anything! we have slept in the same bed, next to eachother, and ended up in awkward positions...but idk! idk but he has never talkd about gurls or past relationships...and i really think that he has never done anything with a gurl or a guy! so when we go back to school...things took a turn for the worst, we stopped seeing eachother as much, and stopped wrestling/fighting...although we always agrue! and he started to act more "straight" around our friends @ school....no one knows that i am gay...and same applies to him! so i thought...wat ever, i'll let it go..mayb he isnt gay and wat ev things change... but last wkend we stayed w/ a friend that was here over the summer, and things went back to the way they used to be....we wrestled and played around etc...so i accidently sent a text to him nstead of my best friend sayn how i miss the way things used to be over the summer, and how things arent the same btween us....after that we decided to go to a friends house...and he actd close to me again (disregardn the tex) we slept in the same bed (he initiated it...and when the lights went off we wrestled and i ended up havn my arm accross his chest, and him holdn my hand..and we talkd for a bit, then split and went to bed)... so....we did things since then (ex. getting our hair cut together...at 2 diff barbershops, him comn along with me and me doin the same (my best friend thinks thats gay)). and lately, when we are around our friends, and we argue....i get really upset and hurt by the jokes he makes (even though i usually wouldnt), i also get really disturbed when he doesnt pay me as much attention as he usually would...i really dont understand him and im really hurt! tonite, we went to a party with close friends, and i felt so distant from him, so i just stayed to myself and chilld, i was invited to a bar w/ friends so i went..and then when i left he actd a bit concerned "where are you going, why are you leavin"...but didnt call! i was seriously angry at the lack of attention i got from him ...what should I do? im really startn to think i cant deal with this anymore...while i wanta tell him i like him (cuz i think he likes me too..i cant pull myself together to do it)...i think i may just tell him that im mad @ him, and tell him why and see what happens from there! some1 plz give me advice

...i kno i kno..i really do think that he is...but theres that little thought that wat if he isnt...he could react in a bad way and ruin me (telln all of my friends and the frat....etc.) but then there is the underlying thought that if he was straight..he would have reacted differently to the accidental text message i sent him so this wkend we went to a friends house....and stayed there and we acted like we did over the summer...continuous wrestling, hittn and playn around (i luv it)..then when we went to bed...he didnt lay at the opposite end of the bed like usual...he layed right next to me...when we turned the lights off, he started hittn me and we wrestled in the dark, which ended up with his our legs interlocked facn eachother, my arm over his chest, and him holdin my other arm and talkn for a bit...with a few hits here and there...and i was reminded of how drawn i am to him, and how much i really do like him (but after a while, he pushes me away..last nite he moved my hand from accross his chest and said "k, stay over there") i feel like he is forcn himself to become distant from me, but he knows he is drawn to me! then we went to bed and he kickd @ me a few times, touchn my foot w/ his foot...and then we went to bed...it seems as though when we sleep in the same bed...we always get a lot of rest (ex. last nite we went to bed around 6am, after wrestling and playn around for an hr or so) and i woke up a few times, but when i saw him next to me i just went back to sleep..and he does the same...then at 2:30pm, i said wat ev im gettn up!! ...i need some advice, he is abit passive and i kno that if some1 is gonna make a move it has to be me....but im so afraid!!!!!!!

thanx a lot dangerouslyinlove, i found ur post very helpful! even though u say u think he is gay...there still is that uncertainty wat if, just wat if he isnt! however, i do really like him...and i hope that he does like me (u think he does)...its just that he doesnt give me the same attention that i got over the summer, and things have just really changed...i think its bc other ppl are around, but idk! its really a toss up, i'd luv to talk with him about these things, but i can't seem to find the courage to do it 2morro he is goin with me to get my hair cut, and i am sure we will do something then! i didi find it odd that his only response to my text message was "im assuming u sent the message"...and that was it...and i was too afraid admit to it so i said "i was joking" or wat ever! but i think he clearly knows i sent it to him by mistake (spoke of him n 3rd person) ..i am so lost, and confused right now..i wish we could just be together!

I think I am in love, or falling for one of my closest friends...but not sure if he is gay.... (SRY FOR THE LONG MESSAGE, IM LOOKN FOR ADVICE) Now lets start from the beginning...in a very quick summarizing fashsion! This summer I worked on campus, and so did my friend Ben... I am a junior and he is now a sophomore...we have known eachother since he came into college...however this summer with us working together and stayin in apartments right next to eachother we became very close! Everyday we would do breakfast, lunch and dinner together...there wasn't a moment that passed that we weren't together! We would even go to eachothers shifts to keep company...as the summer progressed our friendship progressed...and I began to like him more and more...we would always wrestle and fight, often ending up in some awkward position, holding hands...and me trying to hide an erection! After a while we did some really questionable things, very flirty but not necessarily gay..and our friends would say stuff like "you two act so gay" or "everytime i see u 2, ur holdn hands" or "y cant you keep ur hands off of eachother" and we didnt care...when we went to to NY...we slept in the same bed, practically all over each other...and after a nite at the bar the 2 of us walkd around Manhattan, and caught a cab..and ended up holdn hands...towards the end of the summer he would even stay in my room...in my bed with me and again I'd wake up in some awkward position...tangled together with him! when we got back to school...things were different, we dont see eachother everyday, wrestle, play around or anything...and i was really hurt for a while and then told myself "mayb he isnt gay" or wat ev...but i feel as though he changed bc we are around our friends...and i didnt expect it, i thought i would b the one to act more straight since i am in a frat and pres of the frat etc. but then there other times when we are alone (or with some closer friends in a close environment), and we play around fightn like usual and its all good i told myself that even though i like him a lot...i'll leave things alone and let time play its course...if things work out gr8 well today i was in class...and i went through my pics on my phone and saw pics of him when we were in NY...and text messaged my best friend (who is gay) something like this "Aww...I wish things were the way they used to be between Ben and I, Im looking through pics from NY...and miss us walking through the city and holdn hands in the taxi" and then i didnt get a response, so i checkd my outbox and I sent it to BEN! My heart raced, and thoughts picked my brain into a frenzy..i was so scared...however he calld me and i didnt answer his message said somethin like "Im assuming you wrote that message bc i recognize ur shortcuts (when typing i use shortcuts), what are you talking about? Hey, we should do something this weekend ok" i was shockd...i took it as if he was interested now...and wants to talk to me...so i calld him back and said the message was nothing, and then we said we'd do something 2morro...when i saw him today i was so uncomfortable i didnt really say much, but he did play around with me and licked his tongue at me...my best friend thinks that he has to be gay...bc of the message i sent him via text messages...he said most guys would have been like wut da f or something and to him it seems like Ben is very interested now! I havent been in a relationship in a very long time, and I can honestly say that I am more attracted to him than I have been to any other person. As for him, I have never, ever heard him talk about girls, or relationships! It took me a while to realize it and accept it bc love is such a strong word...but I love him, and I would love to have the oppurtunity to be with him and get to be in love with him! WHAT SHOULD I DO? (SRY FOR THE LONG MESSAGE...FEEL FREE TO IM ME ON YAHOO DARIAN_0001)