WalkingDead

I simply cannot believe you have moved on already. You were the one that told me that you thought we needed to establish a real solid foundation of friendship to have genuine intimacy again. Yet here you are just a few weeks later and you are being intimate with somebody you have barely known for a month. I'm stunned. I'm in shock. You words are meaningless, your integrity is shot. Why, Why, Why?

I will start a proper thread about her, when I find the energy. But to be brief, my sweet pea is my next door neighbor. 3 months after I moved here we fell deeply in love, and spent 9 months together, sharing each other's space. We were meant to be together, or so we thought. She rented a room out in her house on July 1st to a lesbian couple. The following day she dumped me. Not that she is sexual with them, but they are now her best friends. I am left in shock and disbelief, as my best friend, lover, and life companion is 100% absent and ignoring me, telling me to never contact her again, as she cooks, barbeques, laughs, and plays with her new best friends. I am in prison. I am in hell.

Sweet Pea. I miss you so very very much. I've been waiting and waiting for you to reach out to me, even though I know you will not, since you told me to never contact you again. I miss your smile. I miss your laughter. I miss your contact. You are so close, yet so very far away. But I know there is nothing that I can say or do to bring you back to me. I have already tried everything possible, and you have just continued to push me away. I will always love you.