ZhaoZilong5

Let's try it again. Day #2, though this isn't about healing.

Heh, this thread's probably past its point usefulness for me, but I'm bored, so I'll play anyway...kind of. Umm...day 2. Looks like I'll just post again on Nov 14th. Should be easy enough unless my ex contacts me.

Day 7. NC honestly won't do much, because I'm one who looks into reasons and details when figuring things out. With that said, after talking to my best friend, I considered my ex's reasons for dumping me, and I can't figure out how to fix the distance without a lot of time. So I moved on a little more after talking to him. However, now that I'm typing this, I feel somewhat annoyed that she loved me and we made all of these promises, but I guess she didn't love me enough to spend her life with me working through things. It makes me very distrustful of women, because I've been led on 11 times and cheated on once. All of this after them telling me how amazing and perfect I was. In many ways, NC is worse for me than the benefits. I had actually done most of my moving on through LC. NC now is filling me with contempt, distrust for women, and egocentric. It's probably why my ex was beating around the bush for 4 months before asking me out. She had to end it when she fell for some other guy, since she knew how much I hated my ex before her for cheating on me. She "[didn't] want to end up being another cheating *****." It might just be me though. I've been able to move on from more than half of my past relationships with constant contact.

Since I really do want to reconcile, should I LC?

Day 1 I'm not allowed to post URLs, but the story is the only thread I started. "Best way to get her back?" I have the willpower to do NC while still visiting profile pages. I think it's better for me to be kept in the loop for more information. I just finished my driving course yesterday. I'm stuck babysitting my nephew until Friday away from my friends. When I get back to my own home on Friday morning, my friends will be on a cruise until next Thursday, and by the time they come back, my siblings will be flying into town with their SOs and staying in my brother's house where I'm at now. My siblings and the vast majority of my online friends don't understand the situation, and one of those friends seems fed up with even listening. This is going to suck...because my support network for this ironically enough is my RL friends who have the experience but knew nothing about my love life well...ever. At least they'll always be there for me when they can, but it sucks that I'm cut off from that support network for three weeks. Edit: My question is, I logged onto WoW last night, and she was online. Yesterday, she texted me after I told her what was up, and she asked me if I wanted to remain in contact or be left alone. Anyway, on WoW, I didn't say anything, and she logged off and texted me to tell me she assumes no since I gave her the silent treatment. How do I initiate NC now? Cold, or explain something again? I had unintentional NC for two days while trying to collect my thoughts to give her my final statements.