NewHope

I miss you.. I miss you so much... It's so hard to stay away from you

"Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your head. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me." I can't stop loving you

It's so unfair that you are probably happily spending your time now with this *******, while i'm still broken and miserable. I keep replaying in my head all the fights we had, all the things that led to you breaking up with me, and think if i could make anything different to make you stay. I keep blaming myself even tho you had your share making things worse between us too. Maybe your share was even bigger than mine was. But still, i'm the only one suffering. You should have never told me that you want to be my wife and have kid with me, if you weren't sure about us. Why did you do it? Why the **** did you do it?? I will never understand this. How can someone's feeling disappear just like that... One day you told me i'm your everything, and 2 weeks later you just turned stone cold... And the worst thing is that i still can't get you out of my head, and i still love you. Wish i could remove you from my mind completely, erase every memory of you that i have. That would be a huge relief.

Why did you give up on me so quickly? Why did you pretend that everything was fine when it wasn't? How could i fix something you didn't let me fix? How did you forget about us so fast? Wish you could see how much i love you, believe in me again and see for yourself that we could be happy again. Sometimes i think that it would be better if you would never told me about your feelings for me, if you would just let me go back then, before "we" began. It would save me all this pain. It's one of the worst things in the world to get something you wanted for so long, only to lose it some time later And being with someone like you was something i wanted for a very long time. You are the first girl i wanted to marry and have kids with. You are the first girl i truly loved... And now you are gone forever I love you, i miss you, you have been the one for me... please do not contact me ever again Hope i'll see you in another life baby.