Kamikaze

Thank you Kel. Well I'm only posting very recent writings. and I know what your saying but you have to understand we had been together for a very long time, married and now separated awaiting a divorce that she wants and I don't. The marriage has been over 10 years, and I have loved her alot longer than that. Alot of mistakes have been made, and now its over. Keep checking back I'll probably be posting some more here soon. Again thanks for your input. It helps to get these out there for review and comments.

A New Years Wish This coming year I pray for the strength To do what I cant. To end the pain. This year I will find a way, To find the courage to follow through. They won't understand…. But they are not in my shoes. My life is meaningless….. Why go on? My wish this year is for it all to just END………..

Damn your story sounds familiar. I was on the other end. Tell him to go to counseling before he ends up like me. I have lost it all and its definatly over for good, She refuses to give me a chance. I drove her to this and I was the same way. Tell him to go now while you still want to try. I refused to also and I F^#&$* up. I don't want to see anyone end up in the mess I'm in. I'm the last to give counseling but before things get worse tell him I said he need to go, get help before its too late.

I hate to say it but I'm in a similar situation, just mine is a long tearm relationship that has ended. I wish I could tell you what to do, but I can't find the answer myself. my only thought is the theme song from the TV show MASH

Here are the ones that lead up to my last post. I hope someone like them. Broken Hearted She has left me, Broken Hearted. But I still love her so. I can't describe the pain, Like being ripped inside out. I don't want to live with out her, Please let the pain end. I would I would die a thousand deaths, For one last sweet kiss. But that will never happen I know this to be true. I wish I could die She has let me broken hearted. Loneliness Am I destined to be alone? Is this how I was ment to be? To love but not be loved. I once found happiness… But I through it away… I would give my life to have her back But try as I may, I just can't get it right. What purpose is life without some one to share All the joys and the sorrows through out your days. Alone in the morning Alone at night. It's a constant battle to keep living. thank you for your time.

Thank you everyone, I'm glad you liked it. Its the story of my life and a question I ask myself every day. Yes Kel you are right, I originaly posted it in that forum but some how it got moved. Oh well I'm glad you all liked it.

Just wrote this, what do you all think? Why Do I go on? I don't know… Its not for me, I have nothing left. All my hope is gone. I do it for the others, For the ones I care most about. BUT ITS NOT FOR ME… I wish it would all end, All the hurt and pain My life means nothing any more, Why do I go on……………