ustupidgirl

Thank u so much for the words. I don't even know if I feel I really deserve them. Most of my life I have felt like a nothing. She really is the only good and true person I have called friend. I could not wait to come home tonight to see if anyone responded to note. I felt better and then worse. I am not sure what my problem is. But, I would pay for my mistakes with my life. And even still, I don't know if my life would be enough. I feel horrible. Just horrible. I hate myself.

I did a horroble thing to my best friend. I went off on her for saying she didn't think my boyfriend was all that good looking. I kind of went through the same thing with her with my ex-husband. It wasn't even the same day. Just one night I started thinking about it all and called here and went off. I know she did not mean to hurt me or anything. She is going through a divorce right now and is having a hard time. Husband was real bad to her. And, I let her know it. In other words, I was trying to say she had no damn right to talk about anything my boyfriends did after she stayed with her stupid husband. I said some ugly things. I felt.. I don't even know. I was mad. Now she won't speak to me. We have been friends for 16 years and never once argued. I feel like such an ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I said the wrong things. I wish , I wish I could take them back.