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No contact with you has been easier than ever. You're such a loser. Did you seriously think after 8 months of ignoring your calls I'd pick up now? Get a life.

I did a lot of reading today and I think you have some traits of Borderline Personality Disorder. Or maybe you're just a jerk and I'm just looking for excuses for your behavior. It's like, no matter what I do, you find ways to sabatoge things between us. Everytime we get close you disappear. You have some issues that you need to deal with, and so do I.... What really sucks is that we actually had a connection that was beyond physical, but you won't let it blossom. I can't deal with this anymore. I need someone that can give me exactly what I deserve and you aren't capable of giving it to me. At the end of the day, I only wish the best for you and I hope you overcome the obstacles in your way, because you're a great guy and deserve what ever you set your mind to. You will always have a place in my heart.

Day 3 Haven't heard from him since I didn't answer his call last. I think he knows I'm ignoring him. I'm tired of his games and I wish we could be friends but it seems he can't let go of the "relationship" we had. Maybe we shouldn't be friends....

Back here again, but not for the same ex (Sorry this ended up so long, this turned more into a rant than a back story lol.) Day 1 + back story/RANT My ex from last year has been in contact since last year when we first broke up. Before, during and after the relationship all he wanted to do was use me. He would call/text me saying how he was "sorry" and that he was just trying to protect me from getting hurt and he didn't want to hold me back once I left for college, all while suggesting that we become friends with benefits and how we should hook up every time I come from from college What an idiot. Sadly, I actually believed everything he told me in the beginning and went along with it at first. And after we'd spend time together I'd feel like crap and wouldn't here from him until a month later. He showed his true colors December of last year when I told him that I had a boyfriend and I wouldn't be his FWB anymore. He had the nerve to get mad at me. He told me that he "thought we were MORE than friends" and that we was hoping that once I got a feel of the college life that maybe we could have gotten back together! I was HEATED! He didn't want me until someone else had me, and then I realized that he was just trying to keep me on a leash while I was in college. I guess he thought that by being physical with me and feeding me BS that I would remain loyal to him, all while he's back home trying to get back with the girl he dated before me (he doesn't know that I know this) Now this year he's been trying to get back with me. He sends me bread crumbs like "Sucks how you don't feel the same way I feel about you" and "We will always be more than friends. I know there's still something there between us" At first I tried to be nice but now I just don't reply to them. But what really brought me here to day was something that happened around two weeks ago. He called me at around 12am and I was a fool and answered the phone. He wanted to stop by to talk and I said it was alright but he wasn't coming in my house. He stayed on the phone rambling about how sorry he was and explaining his behavior until he pulled into my drive way. He kept trying to put his hands around my waist, wanted me to sit in his lap, tried to put my hand on his groin. I repeatedly told him I was uncomfortable with getting so close to him and he got upset. He said that if I gave him another chance that he would show me all of the good aspects of a relationship since all I have seen are the bad. He told me that after I had left he realized that he "loved" me. I knew it was a lie. It took him a while to get it out, laughed everytime he was about to say it, and when he finally did get it out, he said it in my ear. I just didn't feel it. I don't feel love between us. I told him in order to get another chance, he would have to earn my trust again. He was not going to just get another chance after what he did and how he made me feel, WORTHLESS. He seemed so certain that I could trust him and I was ready to see what he was going to do. After he left that night I didn't hear from him until early this morning, 1am to be exact o__0 TWO WHOLE WEEKS. No way am I giving that man a second chance. Actually, I kinda did and he's already blew it! I am so glad I didn't give into his advances and his begging, but I am upset that I let him lead me on into believing he'd changed and actually considered giving him a chance because my intuition warned me that he was full of it. I still have an emotional attachment to this guy and NC is the best thing for me right now. I have been working out, eating healthier, going out more and just enjoying life and all he wants to do is bring me back down to where I was last year. I will not allow it.

Back here again, but not for the same ex

Ignoring you is the hardest part of getting over you. I'm so confident when I'm with myself and I know that it is best for me but when a situation arises and you're trying to get through to me, all these feelings come up and I feel vulnerable/weak. But it is for the best.

Day ? A friend of mine from college contacted me today. We talked for about an hour about what we were doing for the summer, changing our majors, and some how we began to talk about my ex. He told me that my ex still hasn't found another job (it's been 3 months ) and how the girl he left me for use to yell and cuss him out in front of his friends and would treat him badly. He says he hates guys like my ex (called him "lazy" and said he isn't doing anything with life except feeding his pipe dream) and is cutting him off. I can honestly say, that after almost 4 and a half months post break up, I neither felt happy nor sad for him and his situation. It is unfortunate but he hasn't been doing anything to change it and after my friend told me a few more things that had been going on, I'm beginning to realize how delusional he is. He is a narcissistic bum who expects everything handed to him on a silver platter and expects any and every girl to fall all over him. I hope one day he takes those rose colored glasses off.

Day ? A friend of mine from college contacted me today. We talked for about an hour about what we were doing for the summer, changing our majors, and some how we began to talk about my ex. He told me that my ex still hasn't found another job (it's been 3 months and how the girl he left me for use to yell and cuss him out in front of his friends and would treat him badly. He says he hates guys like my ex (called him "lazy" and said he isn't doing anything with life except feeding his pipe dream) and is cutting him off. I can honestly say, that after almost 4 and a half months post break up, I neither felt happy nor sad for him and his situation. It is unfortunate but he hasn't been doing anything to change it and after my friend told me a few more things that had been going on, I'm beginning to realize how delusional he is. He is a narcissistic bum who expects everything handed to him on a silver platter and expects any and every girl to fall all over him. I hope one day he takes those rose colored glasses off.

Accidentally saw a few pix of my ex and had the urge to view the rest, so I quickly came here. It hurt a little to see him doing well after what he did to me. Im not as heartbroken as I was in the beginning but I still kinda hate him. I wish I could look at him with no feelings at all but I can't help how I feel. Sometimes I feel like I should be over him already since the relationship was short.

Day ? Lost count of the days & I don't feel like doing the math right now... Not sure if I'm in the acceptance stage after all. Ran into the girl he left me for and old feelings came back up. They aren't as extreme as they were but they're there. I have amger towards them both still. Mainly her. I wanted to kick her *** so badly but after today I will never see her or my ex again. I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason, and God must have something great in store for me since I've been through so much pain in the past 4 months. Seeking revenge isn't even worth it because at the end of the day their karma will be much worse than what I could inflict. Writing this out has calmed me down and I'm glad I won't have to see their faces ever again.

Day 48-52 It's finals week and I've been focusing on studying and I've also been relaxing. One more week until I head home and I'm happy. Haven't heard from him in a while & I think it's going to stay that way.

Day 47 I have no desires to speak to him. To be honest, I'd be content with never having to see him again. I don't care anymore Ever since a friend of ours told me what happened with him after what he did to me I think I've truly begun to move on. It's like I finally realize that he isn't perfect and I feel like he's gotten his karma, and that has helped me move on from him. As the days go by I get less and less angry. I wouldn't even call it anger anymore really. I haven't been "depressed" in weeks! Thank goodness because depression is the worst part of breaking up lol but after depression there's no where to go but UP! Hang in there guys, it'll be over sooner than you think!

Thanks & good luck!

Day 45/46 46 days of NIC/NC and feeling really good. Not quite sure yet but I may have reached acceptance, don't want to speak so soon though.

Day 43/44 Everyday I realize more and more how much better off I am WITHOUT him. I'm finally realizing that he wasn't that great of a boyfriend. He talked about the way I dressed, how I wore my hair, & called me plain and said I needed to get out more :stupid: HA! What an idiot. Guess he'd rather have a girl that's always in drama and more focused on partying than someone who's ambitious and doing something with their life. "God don't like ugly and he isn't too crazy about pretty."