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Breakup was 2.5 months ago. Relationship was 3 years and we were eachothers firsts. She said she was depressed, confused, emotionally unavailable, very stressed with school/work, etc. She said she'd always remember me but that it would never work and that its the hardest thing she did yada yada. She hasn't spoken to me since that day, 2.5 months ago. A week later she told a friend to tell me that she doesn't want to be with me ever and just not talk to her. I screwed up by begging and stuff for a day and even told her, in my mental breakdown, that i didn't love her till halfway through our 3 year relationship which wasn't true. I just don't see how she can love me so much but its so easy for her not to talk to me for 2.5 months all of a sudeen. Gahhh..I haven't contacted her in a month. Does this sound completely doomed? or has not enough time passed? I was doing good until 2 weeks ago when I got a text on a Sat night from a number that said "Hi" and asked who I was. I told her and then asked how she got my number and she replied by saying that I was talking about her to my ex (hadn't spoken to my ex in months...). I asked when and she said "today I guess" and I asked if it was by text and she said "I guess Idk." That was the last thing she sent. I'm pretty sure this girl was spending that night at my ex's dorm and was given my number from my ex. I used to say "I guess" frequently, it was a little joke we had, so my ex was either playing games with me or maybe just wanted to reach out in some way. Probably the former, but it regressed my progression and put my back to square one. I guess thats considered Contact eh..? It was 2 weeks before this that I drunk texted her and one of my drunk friends felt the need to call her -_- So maybe she was just doing this as a "ha! I have a life without you" or something..... Whatta y'all think? I just want her back more than anything. The BU feels like just yesterday. A month ago, I thought about her for maybe 10 minutes a day but now Its alllllll day again. I've finally accepted that I think its over for good, I know my ex. But I still hope. If she felt the same way I do, we could make this work.

I drunk texted her a bunch of crap last night. So mad at myself. Back to day 1. Went NC for 3 weeks, twice, and keep breaking it. Deleted her number from my phone (although i have it memorized). Deleted all of our texts, still had every single text starting from a year and a half ago since I got this phone. I want NC to last this time until she might break it. Lets see if I can do it. Gets harder for me after the 2 week mark, but that should eventually fade I hope. Just gotta get away from my phone while not sober too.

Any stories about a depressed exgf who was depressed but loved you very much all the way up until she broke up with you and was stressed? We were together 3 years and we were eachother's world but after the BU, she said there was no chance we'd be together again. I'm just giving her time/space. She is taking a lot of hours at school, pressured, stressful job, alone in a dorm. I'm giving her space, but I think her depression has complicated things. I'm trying not to stress about it though. I'm really trying to just move forward but its hard. great thread btw.