I did NC for about 5 days earlier.. She contacted me twice withing these days but nothing. Acted friendly and she took up a old think she didnt like that i was doing. Then I called her and invited for a coffee.. I got a NO..
Afterthats I asked her on messenger, that why she didnt want to join me, doesnt she want to see/talk to me anymore? She said if she wouldnt want that, she had told me that allready. And we just broke up and she doesnt want no contacts atm. When she left me she told me she still loves me and she has nobody else... That the decision was for her very tough and its hard for her too..
Now its my 4th day. Reading a lot why people act like this. Why did I somehow ignored her needs. Why I didnt saw that I have so many distractions. And there were some complications with work and stress that I tought I better keep it to myself. I never ment to ignore her or make her feel unwanted. I really loved her even before the breakup.. I was proud of her.. And after that I realized ive been an * * * * * * * .. Well.. Now still trying to figure out how to fix things. Broke up on Jan 30.
Im open for new dates tho.. but not trying anything serious.. Avoiding sexual contact with others..