Hey hey.
yeah, i can see life's pretty hard on you.
i don't know how it's like to be having those disorders you have, but rest assured; psychiatrist are people who are very well trained in helping people. just trust them.
try to listen to music. you heard of Tommy Emmanuel? one of the greatest guitarist Down Under? his music is very soothing for the soul. try to reduce on adrenaline music. maybe you could channel every hurt you have to playing and composing music. (or perhaps even into poems/different kinds of art) Van Goff (i forgot how to spell his name) had a very severe mental disorder, but he used it to his advantage, through art. the same goes for Ernest Hemingway; who wrote so many books.
also try asking your doctor if there are any 'circles' which you could join, to release every burden and frustration you carry. groups like that have a high rate of healing people emotionally and spiritually, because you'll realise that you're not alone, and that there are others who you can count on.
as for your boyfriend, well...i don't know. but do take a step at a time. don't see everything and deal with them all at once. it's not healthy. achieve and conquer your problems by dividing them into smaller problems, so you can slove them easily. "divide and conquer" works..
if you keep forgetting your medication, try to put up a notice somewhere where you'd see and remind you, or you could always use an alarm clock to help you remember your medication.
you know, in psychology, there was an experiment conducted on dogs; there was this controlled group of dogs, and the experimented ones. the experimented dogs were kept in a cage where there was no chance of escaping, and they were administered with shocks, and guess what? eventually these dogs didn't even try to escape even though the cage was released. they accepted the shocks, although they could escape. Where as those dogs in the controlled group, were put in a cage where they could escape, and when they were shocked, they ran out of the cage.
this is a theory of what is called, "learnt self-helplessness". it's all in the mind, my dear.
Make friends, how? you might ask. well, it's a bit like business. you got to invest your TRUST in others, but not too much..bit by bit...until you're confident with them,BUT ALWAYS remember...choose your friends wisely.
you cannot deny the fact there's always evil people around...but also, there are angelic ones around...
Learn to live again, and find the passion and joys in life.
I'll pray to God to keep you protected.