mbem86

Sometimes, WE lose something..in order to Gain/Receive Something Better!.. n Sometimes we go thru things, to Equip Us for events later in d future.. Continue to Stay Strong!!..

Although i dont know what went down with urs SOYBEANS ..but from ur post, i can relate to it.. I tried hard to make things work out..i never gave up on her even when her own family didnt.. i was there for her when she didnt even ve much..i did it outta love, cuz i cared, cuz i gave a damn.. Pushed her to graduate from HS, Took her to work every morning even after just getting off work at 8am, picked her up, call off work/school to be with her by her sick bed(when she was sick) even her family didnt even want her over for christmas ..did everything possible with my resources n power n time to make her see i was d same guy who was there since day one..i didnt just love her, i was in love with her...Yes, the same love that's gotten me into thz sh*t-hole; alone, sad, questioning.. She copped out on me..n now dating thz guy for maybe id say 1-1/2 months now.... Anyways, continue to keep strong.. As much as it could seem hopeless on some days, u re building ur mental n psychological state much better... Sometimes, WE lose something..in order to Gain/Receive Something Better!.. n Sometimes we go thru thz, to help us down d road.. Stay Strong..

Itz Been a week of NC..or maybe 10days.. But Regardless, I Still have thz feelings.. When i relive some memories, i ask myself...Y did thz happen..? 2-1/2yrs went downhill in d space of 2weeks..on d 9th wud make it 2 months when i re-activated my FB n found u were flirting with him n was even going to see him too.. I was so distraught..i did d stupid thing..i tried to convince u by showing u all we went thru n all we worked thru thz past years... We laughed, cried, shared alot thru d best n d worst times.. n even though i did carry alota responsibility/ bearing in the relationship, it was to make u realize that i was for-real..it was to show that i really loved u and cared n wanted to make u comfy.. Sometimes, i felt like i cared too much that i wud even wanna talk n discuss any issues but u kept bottling em up..kept hiding ur feelings... yes, maybe me doing thz pleading/begging was a bad thing esp from d 27th of dec to sometime in january '12...maybe it pushed u but u already pushed urself to him prior to then..u started fading b4 then but i just thought it was one of those hi-low moments in a relationship.. he preyed on ur emotions n u fell.. Today all that hardwork i put in is being reaped by someone elz.. Itz crazy that i still hope u doing well n whenever i say a prayer or two, i include u in it.. U definitely broke my heart.. Im going thru d emotions today just as somedays.. but I dont know when it'll finally end..or fade.. Idk what elz to say..