triste0508

Tonite is exactly 1 month and 1 week after i moved out of our apt. I still miss you and the little soccer girl a lot !! I am still broke and hurt....I am crying right now writing this!! I am really sorry that I hurt your feelings I know you are not thinking about me ...or even miss me the way I do!! I am really hurt that I saw on your fb..that our relationship for you were a too much drama...and it seems that you are really happy with your freedom and it seems that your little soccer girl doesnt even remember who I am anymore !! I really start to see that our break up was for the best and I am really putting the effort to let you go !!!! I have to let you go ....

I just went out with my friends to the club ....but now I am feeling like trash ...because I was thinking of you for the whole night.... It is not fair because when you go out ...you get drunk ...you have fun...you flirt with other guys....but I can not do the same...and I get jealous of you !!! I thought you loved me !!! I hate you !!!

it has been one week tonite that you let me go .... i am still broke and lost !!! when i came to your life ...you were a forgotten person ....your were a drunken inresponsable single mother !!! both of you and your mother hated each other !!! i was the one that brought light to your life !! I was the one that reconciliate you and your diabolic mother !! I always treated your daughter as my own !!! i always treat you like a princes...i always loved you the way you are !!! I let your mother to move in with us, because I wanted us to help eachother. i fell sorry for your mother because of the sad live that she had, that she has ...and that she will have!! I am still going to school, not only to help myself but to help you also !! hell i even worked as a painter in the summer being hu,iliated by my uncle to prove to you that I care to bring money home !!! I am not a lazyass, I am not a loser, I am not a child molester, I am not a pig, I am not a liar, I am not a cheater like your mother claim me to be !!! I left everything I had for you!!!! I left my apartment that I lived for 13 years, I left my friends, I left my family, I left my things because you promissed me that you would never abandon me !!! everything that I promissed you I have done or the things that I didnt ...I would have done in the future with time !!! But last week you destroyed me !!! you were the one that decided that you wanted to stay with your evil mother, instead of trying to have a family with me!!! I stayed with you in your bad moments ...but you never did the same for me !!!! you could not wait 3 more months for me to finish school and get a new job!!! you couldnt stand up to your mother !!! you chosen the easy way out to make me leave !!! today I am in a small room in my aunts house and you are in a nice apartment that I help to arrange ...I know you are relief that now you can go have your lipo, your boob job, and start to go out and have the same life you had when I met you !!! As I said I am still lost because I did not expect this kind of thing from a person that always said that loved me and wanted to have a family with me !!! But I am going to be ok !!! and you lost the best thing that you could have had in your life ...ME!!! I will finish my degree....I will find a great job ....I will be happy.... and for you ...just stay with your miserable mother, do you whole body again because your are insecure and start to go out again with your guetto friends to try to find an old man with money and a house and a car to take care of you as your mother wants!!! ( if a model cant find this kind of man, does your stupid mother think your fat, guetto, insecure ass can ???) Trust me I will be this kind of man ....and when I see your depressed and broken spirit...I will laugh at you!!!

for some people.... if I was an ignorant, was not in school...had no education...had an unstable family...treat them bad...cheated on her... had no resume... ditch them for my friends...go out to bar and clubs, each one in any different directions...didnt care about their lives......had a criminal record...got out of the house at 6:00 am and returned at 8:00 pm, without any explanation..... BUT...i would bring 1,000.00 dollars home every week for the rest of my life... I would be the best man ever in their life !!