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We are in court now because she thinks I am a bad person. She is upset because of what transpired and says thatI could have got the Canadian Government to pay my way back but I have pride and wanted to work to earn money for tickets and my family. At this time I am living off of savings and will be finishing a book on investments in the Caribbean. I really hope to mend this because she is my soulmate and no one has ever made me feel so at peace when I am with them. I was a bit upset becasue she was pregnant and mayhave been mean at time but after seeing my beautiful little girl put it perspective. Thanks for your answers and support.

I was with my girlfriend for five years since she was 16 and I was 20, she is now 21 and I am 25. We had our ups and downs because of the age difference I suppose, but her maturity was astonishing. We lived together in her mother's house for a year. We had some issues because of ?????? about her fidelity, she then became pregnant and things got bad with her mom on my case about this and that etc. I stayed with her throughout though I was pissed at the whole situation. I left for the Caribbean to get some money form my father for a house since she was about to deliver in a month. I got to the Caribbean and my father was in serious financial problems and his mental health seemed in question. I lent my father money, which was to be paid back in a week so I could get he to see my little girl's birth. All the money I had was now his and I had no way of getting back to my home in Canada. She gave birth and we continued to talk about a solution, I lost my job at the hospital because I did not come back on time. So I had to stay and try to make money which took me very long, I lost my car, phone was cut and I lost contact for almost3 months with my girl and my new born. I quickly offered to send for but she wasn't hearing that and I sent money and she refused. I finished the obligation and did not get back to Canada until a year later without ever seeing her or my daughter. She has since filed a court order for sole custody of our daughter and a restraining order regarding mental abuse, saying that I never wanted my daughter or her. It has gotten very serious and I am stressed out because my experience in the Caribbean has changed my life for the better. I love her very much and want a family but I am scared this may be the end of us. I would give absolutely my soul to correct this gigantic mistake. She is my true love and I want desperately to be a family but her friends and mother think I am scum and she does too. She may be right but all I wanted to do was provide for my family. I wish she could peer into my soul right now. I am in court, hated my the mother of my child and her family. I want to buy a house and put my new MBA and raise my daughter alongside a beautiful wife. What should I do? How do I make things right? Will she ever love me again?