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JA0371

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  1. For some reason, missing you today. I know it will pass, but Im feeling nostalgic. I won't contact you but I wonder why I haven't gotten you out of my system yet. I am doing all I can do, yet you persist. I guess I need to accept that you're not going away easily.
  2. Day 7......busy at work. Off next two days. Gonna do something fun and enjoyable.
  3. Day 6: At work. Been raining all day....but Im doing good. Funny enough I truly have zero urge to contact him at all. I guess this is a good place to be. I just feel kinda indifferent now. Numb. I even had some wine last night and didn't get that normal weak feeling. So, maybe this is truly the end. God I hope so. It took long enough.....
  4. You're way ahead of me!! Lol...hold on. You can do this!!! One thing that motivates me is : he hasn't contacted me either!!! Guess it's the stubbornness in me lol. Oh well..... Whatever works!! You can make it!!
  5. Day 5: Busy day ahead....hopefully a busier weekend. Be strong all!!!!
  6. Be strong 3tears!!! The weak feelings will pass. We all have ups and downs. Just remember how far you've come. Don't look bak!!!
  7. Day 4.... It's midday...at work. Been a busy week. Been working out. That feels awesome...I was exhausted this morning, but still gonna weight train after work. Also realized my weak moments for contacting my ex are at night. During the day Im fine. I stay busy...so I am leaving my phone at work when I leave at night. No need to test temptation. So over feeling like this. Just wanna get my power back and feel strong again. So far...so good.
  8. Day 3: Feeling good. Working out definetely helps. Again, I'm trying to meet a few personal goals, so my mind is more on that right now. I am just wanting to surpass my recent 19 days..... that will definetely make me happy!!
  9. It's early morning....day 2. I know I should wait till the end of the day...but I woke up, worked out. Feeling good... I've set lots of new goals for myself...within the next few weeks. So I'll be busy. I have learned a key to moving on, is to actually MOVE...literally. Sitting, waiting, counting the days is not ever going to work. Been there...done that. A this point, I don't think I even want to reconcile. Ever. Im ready to reinvent myself. I guess that's progress
  10. This is awesome... I made it to 19 days last time I did this challenge. This time I plan on going the distance. Crazy how it takes us a few times of stumbling before we 'get it'. Sigh......and yes I think working out helps ...a LOT!! Keep going!! You're gonna make it!!!
  11. Hi guys.... I got to 19 days last time I did this. Life got crazy and I didn't update that I did in fact give in and stay in contact with my ex. We talked last night for an hour, and when I asked him if he wanted to even pursue a relationship, he could not even have me a straight answer. I just think he believes Im so in love with him I'll wait for him forever. Wrong!!! Yes I love him but I have to get him out of my system. So.......here goes. Day 1.
  12. I agree with 3 tears. Yes it's hard...no one said it wasn't, but when you break up with someone, they have zero right to expect anything from you....and yes, that includes birthday, Xmas, etc.....that's no longer your obligation. Period. Your only obligation is to yourself and healing. Most reasonable exes would completely understand that.
  13. Day 19: Woke up thinking of him....glad Im at work. I'm in a good mindset...looking forward to getting through this 30 days unscathed .
  14. Day 18: It seems like forever. It's kinda surreal. I almost don't even want to keep posting because it's almost like it keeps bringing everything back to the surface, but for the sake of the challenge, I'll post up to 30 days. At this point, I feel confident I will finish. There have been no 'breadcrumbs'..and he is out of state working, so no temptations to see him. I guess this situation is ideal for NC. I do miss him a lot...but I know that's part of breaking up. I'm not going to die, and I'll be stronger, but I'd be lying if I said there weren't some struggles. For me...night time and early mornings are hardest. It's when my mind isn't tied up and I have time to just think. I guess a small comfort is knowing he must be going through the same thing......but ultimately I want him to be happy. I have actually wondered if everyone doing this challenge was guaranteed that their ex would definetely want them back, or contact them if they finished the entire 30 days...if it would be any easier to stick to? Im guessing it still wouldn't, but I bet more people would. I guess everyone needs to have hope..and if it makes someone get through something that much easier, then let them have it. Im all about being realistic and not giving someone false hope, but who am I to crush that hope? I am believer that sometimes things do work out....but most of the time it takes lots of positive change and yes...a positive attitude that it will. Hope everyone is doing well..
  15. Aww..thank you PearlH..hang in there it does get easier. The first week was the hardest. Some days I definetely miss him more than others...but it passes when I stay busy. A dog or puppy is a great idea. I had wanted one even before my breakup...but it does keep you on your toes.lol By the way...it's day 15 for me!
  16. 2 Weeks today..... The last week went fast.. Maybe because I was busy with work and my new puppy. I suppose keeping busy is the key. Regardless..time and distance definetely helps. I feel so much more removed and more detached. Im happy that I don't feel so sad anymore, but part of me misses that connection. I think ...and I may be wrong, but I think a lot of people get used to that sadness, so when it's gone, they actually miss it, because it's their only connection to their ex. Hope the next two weeks goes as quickly
  17. Hi Janut....I had an issue with sleeping too...not because of this, but just general reasons. Im taking Wellbutrin now...and it seems to help me go to sleep and stay asleep. It took a couple weeks, but I don't feel like a zombie anymore..
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