Day 3...
...of no contact, yes it's difficult, thankfully have few things on today to keep me busy, including trip to my therapist since I know I need to talk to someone. Just miss having him round the house, the odd text that I used to get which still made my heart race after 9 years but I know I have to stop thinking about that.
I think it's worse because it's Christmas, I used to buy him loads of presents because I know preme he thought Christmas sucked and I was always the excitable one even though I am a grown adult, worse this year since it's also the first one without my dad who died 6 months ago.
I know no contact is the way forwards, some days just easier than others and today not a good day.