Karianne

I wish I could forget you I don't want to remember what we had and feel sad anymore, or long for it to come back. Most of the time I just want you to go away, just like the pain in my heart. It's been five months, I know you've moved on and I want to move on too. I don't want to miss your ghost. You're a different person now, and I need to remember that.

Lately I've felt the urge to message you. All those regrets and worries are rushing back to me now, after five months: what if I didn't show you enough how much I loved you? What if my needy, depressed behaviours pushed you away? If only I had loved you better. If only I wasn't depressed... I want to talk to you. I feel like there are still loose ends, even though I bet to you you're relieved I'm out of your life. I feel like I'm starting all over again: I lost the one person who loved me more than anything. Did I push you away? What happened? I know closure comes from within but it's hard for me to get over the fact that you never once replied to my messages. Yet I still want to talk to you.

I'm really hurting. It's been two and a half months and here I am, crying my eyes out. Everything reminds me of you while virtually nothing reminds you of me. You don't care about me anymore. You are having so much fun living your life, and I'm still here heartbroken, trying to heal. I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster. Sometimes I feel good, and then I come crashing down. I want the pain to be gone.

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part..." -John Mayer I feel this exact way. I miss you so much. I loved you with all my heart and I thought you would never break it. I didn't think you were that guy but you are, and now I can't stand to see you.

I don't hate you. I don't think I will ever carry such a negative emotion for you in my heart. I am trying to take you off the pedestal, but I know that my love for you is real because I want you to be happy, with or without me. I hope you are doing well. Sometimes I wonder if you care about me anymore. You probably think about my once in awhile, but I know you don't regret your decision to break up with me. I think we both have a lot to offer, but I guess not to each other. I hope that I can find someone someday who will love me as much as you loved me, and vice versa. I hope that my next love will be when I am more mature, and with someone capable of handling it. I'm kind of sad that I was your first girlfriend, because you learned so much for me, but I am not the one who gets to reap the rewards. What am I trying to say? I don't know. I am moving on. I cry from time to time, but healing is healing. Good luck to you.

^ wow your post was the 11 000th reply!! it's crazy how there were 11 000 messages here written to exes, messages that came from our hearts... hang in there c_unknown. this too shall pass. many hugs to you.

My thoughts exactly. And I know one day that day will come for us, h0pelessheart! hang in there! you are not alone! Dear ex, I really don't know what to say to you I don't think you respect or even really care about me anymore. I've been replaced, so there really isn't anything left for me to do but move on as well. It sucks that you won't be there to see it, but I guess I need to accept the fact that life waits for no one and people will come and go from our lives. I wish you were one of the solid people who would hang in there like you promised, but just like me, you are only human. I wish nothing but the best for you. Good luck

what the hell does "you'll always have a special place in my heart" mean? i feel like you lied about loving me right up until we walked away from each other for good. i'm hurt and angry and confused. and it's been 2 months of NC now. i thought i made progress and i had. but i feel memories and feelings about you resurfacing. it's so painful.

Thanks, I didn't reply, he only texted that one time so I doubt he really cares. During our relationship I was always the one sitting around waiting to hear from him, but none of that!! It's coming on 2 months of solid NC, and I have to say I have grown a lot. I never thought it would get better but it did, and only in two months. Thanks for the support everyone and stay strong!!

Hey SB, thanks for replying! Sorry I didn't reply sooner, I didn't see this. We've been NC since three days after the breakup, and that was in early July. I don't know if I want him back. We haven't been in contact so I don't know if he's changed. I've worked on my problems, but I feel that I still need time to grow and work on them. I think I'd be okay breaking NC, but I don't know if I want to give him any feeling of power over me

Almost 2 months since the breakup. I've been NC for almost that entire time, starting three days after the breakup. He texted me last Saturday saying, "I'm sorry. I don't know if I should respond. Everyone is telling me not to...

It's been almost a month of NC!! I am doing better. I am feeling way better. NC really does work in getting YOURSELF back!! I am focusing on myself and it's helped me tremendously. It's helping me get on my own path to happiness and just being content with who I am and how I am living. Of course, I do miss him. Like today I had a striking moment of pain and it really caught me by surprise, how much I still care about you and really want to know how your life is going. But you're not here anymore, so I will direct my attention elsewhere... Hang in there guys, it gets better. After only a month of NC I'm already reaping its benefits. Chinafish, it's okay. Just get back on that NC horse and keep looking forward! You can do this and I have utmost faith in you!

Day 29. I found out you're moving out on your own. I guess you're getting that independence you wanted, huh? And you're leaving everything in the past now. You're going to live it up with your new group of friends in the heart of the big city. I shouldn't have sought out this information. It's only setting me back. I realize now that you're not even worth my tears, and I don't think I want you back ever again. Not you, someone who could so easily throw me away.

I know exactly how you feel. Even when my ex was breaking up with me, I told him I could be happy on my own but I wanted to share so much of my happiness with him. Think of it this way: if your ex comes back, don't you want them to see a new and improved version of you? a happy version of you? I know it's hard but try some new things, you may find something you never imagined would make you happy but it does. IMO this is not false hope but a motivation to get me back for ME! anything else that comes my way is just a bonus.