easilymistakeme

oh, btw emix...that gives me a little hope, thanks. you have to remember that im pretty young compared to some of you, so i havent acquired the wisdom many of you may possess when it comes to love life.

yeah... i think you guys made some really good points. i dont know if its that i totally dont feel for her. i just dont know if i really want a relationship right now. but shes the type of girl who would take that differently and assume that i hate her or something, or that i thought she was ugly. its just that i look at us as being more of close friends. i spend a load of time with her, but not really in a sexual way..at all almost. its pretty much just hanging out most of the time, and lots of cuddling and whatnot. its making me sick, im honestly sick of it...hehe. The thing someone said about her getting bored of me.. how do you think i could speed that process up just a little bit?(if possible) i dont want to leave her when she is feeling this strong towards me. i happened to take a peek in her diary, even though i know i shouldnt have. and she wrote how much she doesnt want to lose me, and she kept asking herself what is wrong because she is confused....... im really confused too i just want it to be over, i dont worry about the pain i might feel at all. its her who is making me worry in every way thanks easilymistakeme

i am a young guy facing something that seems to be a big problem to me. im 17 yrs old, still in high school. and ive been loyal to this certain girl of the same age for about a year now. and i am her first real young love, for a fact. we sacrifice alot of time and alot of everything for each other. and we are and always been since a few months after we started goin out, pretty much attached, especially recently. but sadly, my feelings started to fade a month ago, and it is still going. i wish life was easier. i find it hard to say i love her, or to let alone kiss her. i dont think i want to because i thought i started this good habit of gradually letting her know that my feelings are fading. But today i think i made an enourmous mistake when i found myself in bed with her. i dont know what i was thinking, and i dont know if i was thinking at all. i gave her much love during our time, and i was absolutely very very very good to her. some people would say a little too good(no lie). i also happened to be the one who took her virginity from her.... she has develped a huge reliance on me, maybe because of this. if not, then she is still very very heavily attached to me, and she wouldnt know how to go on with life without me as her bf. she is very naive right now in her life, being inexperienced other than with me. and i desperately want to know how to say goodbye to someone who loves you that much. i dont know how to break it to her, and i dont want her to collapse totally and do something stupid that any other teenager would do if they were that devastated. im very lost, and i need help with what to do. i have lots of school to worry about and alot of my life is ahead of me. i am just too darn considerate of other peoples feelings. i would actually put her first when it comes to this, and cancel out during the breakup because i just cant take her showing so much pain. please help me, i need all the help i can possibly get right now. very much appreciated -easilymistakeme