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So I texted my ex this new years with my new number. Breaking NC for over 4 months..She told me whos this? I said my name. Never got a response..I then * * * * ed up by calling her now..no response. I'm feeling like * * * * again and wanting to break down. I havent felt this way in so long..its so hard. I'm now stalking her FB page just hurting myself more

Day 93 BU:Sept 2nd Last time I tried reaching out: Sept 16. I haven't posted here in a long time. Reason why I'm back? Feeling lonely again. Ive been feeling muuuch better! Better then ever. But lately its been hard. Didn't get to celebrate my birthday or Thanksgiving with her. And Dec 2nd made 3 months since our breakup. Not too mention Dec 11th we wouldve made 2 years together This cold weather in NYC and Christmas holiday right around the corner is making these feelings of missing her stronger. I miss her like crazy and actually think I'm going to make contact sometime around Christmas. I haven't heard a single word from her since Sept 2nd. She gave me the complete silent treatment. If only she knew what id do to hold her once again.

BU:Sept 2nd Last time I heard a word from her was Sept 2nd. She is giving me the silent treatment. Last time I ever tried reaching out to her was Sept 16th. I have been NC ever since that date. Day 42 I started to stop missing you little by little by around day 30. But recently I'm starting to miss you more then ever. I'm at work thinking of you. At my house thinking of you. Now with halloween coming up I can only imagine the fun youll be having and the loneliness ill be having. I always wonder til this day. Do you even miss me? Do you think of me? Is there someone else? I love you dearly. Why cant you just come back into my arms? My birthday is almost here on Nov 10th and even that ill spend alone Thinking of breaking NC very soon...

BU:Sept 2nd NC:Sept 16th Day:24 I did just about everything when she left me. Sent flowers,cards,begged,called,texted,everything! And not a single reply. She basically went NC on the day she left me. I went NC on the 16th of Sept. Ever since she left me I have not heard a word from her at all. She blocked me on FB and I believe even changed her number. I feel extremely hopeless at this point. I have romantic dreams with her and sometimes even nightmares. I always ask myself these questions.. Does she even miss me? Does she have doubts? Does she have someone else? So many things trace my mind. I miss her with all my heart and have many urges to contact her. But I seriously do not want to mess up my chances. Tomorrow we wouldve had 1 year and 10 months together Time will only tell.