Makeit

I miss what we had. I wish I could relive the good times over and over again. Wont ever forget them.

You kept telling me you loved me during our breakup. Then why wasnt love enough to keep us together? You were an amazing woman and Im glad I was finally able to tell you how much I loved you. I just wish things could have been different. Ill never forget you. And this is killing me inside. I cant even function and dont know how I am going to get thru this. I love you so much baby. You deserve to be happy. Im sitting here at work wondering how I am going to get through the day. Wondering how I am going to be able to go home not having spoken to you. I want you to contact me so bad. I want you to tell me you cant take it anymore. I want you to say that no matter what your family thinks you cant be without me. For 4 years you have been part of me everyday and now its over. Id give anything to go back and cherish every moment we spent together again.

Well tonight was officially the end of me and you. Ill never speak to you again aside from the few times I am sure ill have no choice but to speak a few words with you. I look back and cant believe myself for even getting involved with you. This recovery will be easy. Much easier then my last when I was with someone who was and will always be 10x better then you in every way. I remember getting to this point with her ,how I finally gave up trying to make things work, how I finally made the decision to stop trying. It was a hard decision that looking back now. Im glad I made. Ive been trying to tell myself for weeks to make that same decision with you but my mind would not let me until now. I wish I had found this forum with her to express myself here instead of the pathetic attempts I made at telling the last person I truly loved how I feel. The crazy thing is I have been thinking about her a lot lately. Little moments , things we did. Places and times and how I felt then. I think this was my minds way of letting me know I needed to end my time with you. Letting me know how much stronger my feelings were with her then with you. How I need to find someone who made me feel the way she did. Not the way you did. So this is goodbye and on to a new life for me. Ill be much happier then you will in time. I know this and so do you deep down. And its gonna feel so good to hear about how you fell. I bet you will even try to crawl back to me when things get bad. I cant wait to shoot you down and laugh at you inside my head. But ill do it with class and respect. Something you werent able to do.

Youre such a pathetic person. Having a child with me while the whole time you still wanted your loser x bf. You said you wanted to marry me then you left me cold once you found out he was single again. Enjoy your sick and twisted life you trashy * * * * * . Ive never loved and hated anyone more then you in my entire life.