kaput

Day 2: Yay i got here! Oh wait, no I didnt, you rang me in your pocket by accident yesterday. You laughed and send me a heart and kisses back when i sent a text to tell you. So. Day 1: Really missing you today. I had another dream about you last night. I wonder if I will always dream of you. I hope you have a good time this weekend. Wish i was coming with you baby. Feel like tonight is the night i will lose you. It's going to take some mega resolve not to contact you tonight, it really is. I might do another half day update and say whatever it is i want to say in this thread. Maybe i will hear from you Monday at some point. I hope so. Love you baby

Day 1: (still) I honestly thought you would text me last night. Maybe you took someone back to your place. Maybe your friend "v" said something to persuade you that you dont need me in your life? I've got a feeling that's what you will think after this weekend anyway. Who could blame you really- funny, smart, kind, loving, confident, so, so attractive. You could have anyone. I'm only posting here so I dont text you. But should I even worry about contct with you? You told me we should do what comes naturally and what feels right at the time. I'm so confused.

Day one: Well, the start of. I text you kisses last night when i left the bar. You replied with kisses. Let's see if you text over the weekend. Some how i doubt it though. Out in town tonight, amy's tomorrow and clubbing sunday to monday with your mates. A week ago you told me you love me. We shared a bed. Did it mean something or is it all part of some kind of elaborate let-down? You initiated contact for 4 consecutive days leading up to it. Was it too much too soon? I dont really know the answers to these questions and neither, i suspect, do you. So for now, i will give you some space. Even though i really feel like i'm going to lose you this weekend. All i know is i miss you jo. Just hope you will give me a chance to right my wrongs. The silly thing? That i will see you on Tuesday at work and will be right back to day 1 again. And again. And again.....