jolbell69

It's so great to hear some success stories on this forum!! Thank you!!!

BU 3rd July 9 weeks NIC and LC 1 month NC LC since yesterday Update - he called me last night and we talked for an hour. I didn't expect a response from my text, so it was a pleasant surprise. He told me he was afraid to call because he wasn't sure I would answer. After my "I miss you" text, he said he missed me too and thinks of me all the time. He said that if he doesn't contact me; it doesn't mean that he isn't thinking about me. He has been working on himself and sounded much more positive and less depressed, which I told him I am happy about. We caught up on eachother's lives since the last time we spoke, and he was very interested in the changes I have made. It was all very polite and friendly. I am glad he called and I know how he is. He asked tentatively if he can call me some times, and I said he could. I really do want to know how he is doing. I am under no illusion that we will get back together - in fact, I am happy to keep moving forward with my life. I have decided to go out with the amazing kisser that I met on Saturday night - another kiss would be nice..... I feel much better about everything today, and am looking forward to the future.

BU 3rd July 9 weeks NIC and LC 1 day NC Confession time.... I broke NC last night on my 28th day and sent him a very simple text saying: "I miss you!!". I wasn't drunk, but I was out with a friend and feeling sentimental. I have received no response, nor did I expect one. I feel ok about it - I don't regret sending it. Our BU was very dignified and we both still love eachother, so I had nothing to lose. Start NC again today. Another confession... I kissed someone last night and it is the first contact I have had with another guy since me and my ex split up. I actually felt guilty like I was being unfaithful. I really enjoyed the attention from this person, and the kissing was sensational. He wants to see me again, but I don't know. I'm not ready for anything and he's much younger than me.

BU 3rd July 9 weeks NIC and LC 21 days NC Is it supposed to get easier?? I have been really down the last couple of days, and can't get my ex and our relationship out of my head. I am sure I am doing the right thing with NC, but I admit I'm disappointed that he hasn't tried to contact me, or one of my friends - to see how I am. I miss him so much, and really continue to hope that we can get back together one day. You see - I know he loves me, I know he doesn't want anyone else - it was his circumstances that led to him breaking up with me. Am I stupid to hope??? I spoke to one of my closest friends, (male) and he told me that I should give up and move on. He thinks that there is no chance we can get back together, and he doesn't want me to wait. His comments made me feel much worse - I appreciate his honesty, but he doesn't know my ex very well, so how can he be so sure? PLEASE eNA friends - what do you all think????

BU 3rd July 9 weeks NIC and LC 17 days NC God - I am missing you so much today!! I am reading a lot and spending a lot of my time getting to know myself again. I have realised some very important things this last 3 months, and one of the most important is that I hold grudges too easily and let them rule my life. I know this is why I could be needy at times during our 2 and 1/2 years together. I believe I am always looking for people to like me, and your love made me rely on you too much. This period is very painful, but also enlightening and cathartic for me, and for this; I am grateful. I had my tarrot read yesterday, and it was a very positive experience, and I hope the things that were said about my relationship with you can come true!! I hope you are also taking this time apart to look at yourself and see what is important.