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I feel guilty for going on a dating site.. Im so young. I really shouldn't need to go on one yet. I'm just feeling lonely and your already back on one.. I won't go on any dates any time soon but it would be nice to have the attention i suppose.

That must have been horrible.. My ex hasn't tried to get a hold of me since the break up and it's the most heart breaking experience. I don't know what i'd do if he ever invited me over let alone talked to me ever again.

I drove past you today as I was driving home.. what a horrible coincidence .. After a few very good days where I start feeling better, I find out you have a dating profile and then I actually see you. It's like the universe is working against me to NOT heal and suffer. I'm trying to keep positive thoughts and something has got to give soon. I'm beginning to feel like i'm being punished and will feel this way forever. I know you didn't see me because, I have a new car and even if you did you wouldn't acknowledge it but, I still checked me phone. BLAH. Two steps forwards a million steps WAYYY back.

You know I read these forums and I see people that get the choice to ignore their ex. I get nothing, not one message from you since day 1. This may be a blessing in disguise but it still hurts. You don't even care, and i care so much. i know i don't deserve to feel this way.

I don't really count the days.. It would probably make me cry.. I know it's been a little under a month that I texted him and got not reply. I will stay strong.. I will not give in. This is the only way for me to heal.

Yeah I only have his cousin and his mom as a friend.. I just feel bad for deleting them.. I enjoyed being around them both. Maybe someday ill delete them.. but at least I have him blocked so I wont see anything he post on their wall..

I keep trying to tell myself it's for the best.. thanks for the positive reinforcement

Took the plunge and blocked him on facebook. I don't care what he thinks of it. --childish.. over reacting. WHATEVER. I'm done living my life on facebook hoping he will see something through a mutual friends page. DONE.

"Heaven help the fool who did her wrong It's too late, too bad, she's too far gone He should've thought of that before he left her all alone If she's lonely now, lord if she's lonely now If she's lonely now, she won't be lonely long" Alllll i gotta say to you

Dear You, I don't get this. Sometimes i feel like texting you how stupid this all is. We went 8 months without any big major malfunctions. Everytime your buddy called complaing about his GF you told him to work it out, they clearly had far bigger problems then we ever had so why is that we can't work it out? I feel like your scared because, we were becoming so serious... I wish you would telll me this though because, I love you so much that i would do anything to make it work. I planned skydiving bought tickets for us to go see a concert planned things for us to do together that we'd both enjoy- but, nope we are too different. we just don't liek doing the same stuff. BS. I was willing to learn new things from you.. it was so exciting (coming from a sheltered life) you helped my gain independence from my mom.. and now you've left me here with her. I just want to get a way. I know i took you for granted I know i was a big pain in the butt at times... I had issues and you seemed to be the only one that got what I was going through. I'm so hurt and confused.. my feelings don't come out like I want them too and I guess that's why im choosing not you tell you any of this.

I remember that night you had a dream that i left you for someone else and you were just sitting there so upset because, you never wanted to lose me. What happened to that feeling? that wasn't all to long ago either.

I was so sad today, you still haven't contacted me about getting money to me for sky diving. Which I had them cancel your reservation anyway.. i just don't want to break NC to tell you. (stupid? maybe.) I'm so mad because, it was something you brought up and I made happen once again. It was always me planning things for us would have been nice for you to do it for once. Now going skydiving is MY thing and i'm doing it on my own.. and experience that your missing out on.

Yah you got it!!! I hope mines gets GIGS but I wont want him back at that point.

Allow me to help its " the grass is greener syndrome" I'm really not sure how to explain it i just know what it stands for

My brother says you contacted him and told him you're coming over tomorrow night for your stuff.. I wonder if you have the balls. You ran from me, i've tried talking to you and being nice and apologizing and it just doesn't help.. So when IF you come get your stuff.. good luck because, i'm not helping you in any way shape or form.. my brother can help you since he is apperently the middleman between us.