Thanks for the feedback Rita. I'm technically back to day two again. As I spoke with her via facebook to say I was going to delete her from facebook for a bit. Now two days into it I am still really sad and cry still at odd times, just walking down the street or making a coffee, I start crying.... feel so sorry for a lot of * * * * I created... She was not perfect either... Had a facebook chat with her best friend, who is still a friend of mine too. She said that my ex seemed happy, but that she also missed me a lot. It was nice to hear she missed me, made me stronger, knowing that it wasn't as easy for her as she was making out. I'm not holding out for a change of mind, I'm hoping I heal and move on, I just feel like no one will ever love me the way she did, feels stupid to say, I'm sure I will find someone new... NC seems like an eternity before i will be happy again, day two feels like I have gone nowhere... I hope I can keep going.