thank you for your reply, it feels good to get this off my chest as I can't talk to anyone I know.. I've tried to rationalize, to tell myself it's gotta be just lust or whatever but it doesn't make anything better or clearer.
I've just never been one to fantasize about guys I don't know, like actors or models, etc. I have to know someone at least a little before I've ever actually ben attracted to them in the past, I feel like such an idiot, that I can't get this guy out of my head & it's so extreme. It's just so not like me.
I've even tried spending more time with my boyfriend & reminding myself that I love him & he's so good to me & all & nothing is working, maybe I'll feel better tomorrow now that I've vented, I hope so...
