Butterfly023

I accept the NC challenge today 05/06. This will be very difficult as we do work together and sit right next to each other. I was w/ my ex for 3 years up until last week. We typically have broken up every 3-6 months for a few days/weeks and always got back together. I have now come to realize that I will never be a top priority in his life more rather a convienence. I want someone who wants to be w/ me, wants to share little and big things with me, who misses me when I am not around etc....unfortunately I still want him to be that person. After 3 years of us having good times I am not sure if I can do this, I have learned to lower my standards and tolerate not having what I deserve. I can't do this anymore, and will not fall into the trap of the random niceness and I miss you text that come along only when we are not together. I hope I am strong enough to complete this!