ManIDontKnow

Day 40. Over it.

Day 38. Second month's still hard as all hell.

That is a phenomenal post, Kev.

Day 34. I never use GChat. So I never thought to block your account. This morning, your name popped up on my contact list. Your status icon was green. You were "Available". What a cruel, cruel status, Google. I just sat there, frozen, staring at that goddamned green dot for ten minutes. You were out there, somewhere. But not with me. Finally, it turned orange. You'd left. Again. So I blocked you from there, too.

I've gotta get that goddamn motorcycle.

Day 32. Today was the hardest in weeks. Why were you so insecure? What did you need and why didn't you ask? You hurt me so deep. I still have no idea why you left me for him. We were so good. But you went away and forgot me, stopped loving me. If that was your idea of a rough patch, darlin, you haven't got a clue. My love was so tangible, real. I was always honest and true to you. April is the cruelest month.

Sounds like we are indeed, Sunshine. Hang in there. And thank you.

Dumped me Feb 26th. Saw you with him Feb 27th. Your explanation email Feb 28th. My f-off email March 1st. Today, thank God, is a new month. Goodbye to March 2011 forever. Chapter closed.

Day 30 1/2 I still have no idea why you left me for him. And I still love you like crazy. * * * * you.

Day 30. * * * * you.

God, I just want you back in my bed. In my arms. Come back. But you're with your boss now. He's 2 inches shorter than you. Do his arms reach around you? Oh, and congratulations on the promotion.

Why didn't you just tell me what you wanted? You went abroad for two weeks. Let people who have never once met me convince you I was the enemy. But all I ever did was love you to pieces. You silly, selfish, spoiled little brat.

What happened to my girl?