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Day 5 Today I was doing really well. I didn't really think of you throughout the day. I had some great laughs, dreamt about the future, and ate some amazing food. I'm getting ready for bed and I suddenly started to think about you. I want to tell you about my day and tell you how much I miss you. I thought about how I would react when I find out you're dating someone new. I think I'm going to be a mess.

Hey thanks! I've been doing better today. I don't have anyone to talk to at the moment since I'm miles away from home alone. Traveling on my own for a few more days so it gets really lonely sometimes. Day 4 I'm doing really well today. I was so busy with work, I didn't really think about you much. But that was ruined after you texted me. Don't really know why you would text me even though you know I'm not in town. I didn't reply to you because I'm still in NC mode. I really wanted to text back and ask how you were doing. But I had to remind myself that I need to do this for myself. I still love you and hope you are ok. Please don't hate me for ignoring you.

Day 3 I cried a couple times today. I feel like a loser for being so weak and letting my emotions get the best of me. Sleeping is still a problem. Having a hard time dealing with the silence. I'll admit I actually pretended to talk to you. Sad I know. Onto the next day!

Day 2 Wow! I'm surprised I did it. I was feeling sad all day and I felt out of control. I couldn't sleep last night because all I could think about was you. But this evening, I suddenly wanted to feel empowered. It's been about a month since the breakup and I want to take control. I deleted you from my facebook account. I didn't do it because I hate you or think you are a bad person. You are an amazing person, but I had to do this for me. I care about you, but today is the day I start my new life without you. I also deactivated my facebook account because I know our mutual friends are going to post pictures of you when they hang out with you. So, I'm just going to focus on me for a while. I feel liberated. I'm sad and excited about the future at the same time.

Past Day 1 Wow, it's been 24 hours since I last talked to you. I am feeling really lonely right now. The silence of my place is extremely depressing. I'm also very tired. I want to sleep, but I don't want to go into my bed alone. I know you told me yesterday that you've been really depressed about this whole situation. I guess I don't understand why you don't want us to be together again since we were so happy together. I'm giving you what you need - time apart. I hope you're doing ok.

Day 1 - We talked last night just to smooth things over with our mutual friends. I think I'm ready to focus on me now. I thought about you at work today for quite a bit. But it's time to let you go and let you focus on your life. I know you have some challenges ahead and I can't be around bothering you. Today, I'm going to hit the gym hard. Looking forward to the amazing workout.