lovesick134

Ive had a relapse...I'm missing you more and more now days it seems. I want to tell you how crappy you're making me, updating your facebook saying her name like 5 times? was that necessary? Rub it in much?! Well just for that I took you off my newsfeed so I dont have to see your name on my phone anymore. I'm not over this, Im not ok. Part of me wants to tell you and hope you'd feel like crap. But I know you wouldnt. You knew I still had feelings for you when you first started seeing her. It didnt make a difference then, so it wont now.

I really miss you today for some reason. I'm emotional about it too which really sucks. Why did you have to go and stir up my emotions again? If you dont want me, which you've made that pretty clear....then why wont you just let me try to move on??

Thanks so much for the advise. I try my best not to let him get to me, but I found out about them by the lake right before I went to work and then he was there. I just got so angry and upset! It just feels like a slap in the face. Especially since I was dumb enough to reply to his text mon hoping to create peace between us again. It worked....but he took her walking that night. So much for that!

Im so upset with you right now. I ofund out that you took your new girl to walk around the lake the other night....my lake. Yeah I dont own it and its a free country but seriuosly? You know I walk around that lake almost every night that its warm enough. You knew I could of seen you with her easily and been hurt. You're lucky I was with friends instead....I would of had words to say to you. You dont even consider my feelings at all whatsoever. How dare you come into my work today to visit your friend...you know I work alot of hours and you dont even consider how it might upset me to see you. You just dont care do you?

Why did you text me yesterday? You've been on my mind ever since! I feel more i control after I waited hours to respond and kept everything short but part of me didnt want to end the conversation even though i knew I had to. You werent saying what I needed to hear, so I didnt want to hear any more. Why did you text me after exactly a month? Do you miss me? You're still with her so i doubt it. Do you just want to mess with my head? Well congrats....youve gotten back inside of my head. I never got you out of it in the first place i guess.

I admit it, I miss you. I miss our talks. I can't just forget you like you seem to have forgotten me. It's been three weeks of no contact from me and you dont even seem to care. When I found out you had moved on and were dating her I was a mess, I was really down-almost suicidal....and you dont even care enough to reach out and see if Im ok. I was always by your side for a year. You could always count on me and lean on me for support. Where are you now that I need you? Oh, thats right...you just used me to help yourself move on. You are a real piece of work you know that? I dont know what I even saw in you, you are not the guy I thought you were.